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It’s my 22nd birthday next Tuesday, but I’m doing the celebrating this weekend. Ste’s sister and her husband are having a Halloween party today, and tonight we’re going out with most or all of his brothers, too. Cradle of Filth are playing at the Krazy House. I haven’t been there in a long time. I’m a bit apprehensive - I’ll have to dance and to do that I’ll have to be drunk, but I don’t like getting drunk anymore. When I go to the pub I have one drink. I haven’t had a hangover for over a year, which is great. But now I can’t drink more than that without feeling weird and sick. So, I’m not sure how well I’ll do tonight. As well as that, Ste is taking me for a meal tomorrow. It should be a good weekend.
Speaking of meals - the cooker STILL hasn't been fixed. I feel really unhealthy, I've been eating chips and/or burgers nearly every night and I've probably shortened my life by doing so :P I want pasta, rice, potatoes. Real food.
I don't talk much about my job search, do I? Well, after six months of receiving Job Seeker’s Allowance, I’ve been put on New Deal. I meet with my advisor once a week now. This should help me get a job. I’m starting a two-week course on November 17th. I’ve also been put on a list to wait for an interview, to do admin work at the Royal Hospital. It would be a good opportunity for me, but to be honest, I’m bricking it! The thought of interviews and pressure and answering telephones makes me so nervous. I have social anxiety, I don’t believe in myself, I’m not very good with people, and I have a tendency to mess up and look stupid and clueless. I do want to get a job, but it’s hard to face the reality of actually doing it. I wish I wasn’t like this. Life would be a lot easier if I wasn’t afraid of normal things.
I guess now isn’t the time to worry about it... I’m going to get showered and dressed soon and focus on enjoying the next few days.
Here’s a catch up on my Project 365 pictures.
October 21st
It’s a tattoo parlour on my street.
October 22nd
Mmm bacon.
October 23rd
Lonely little flower I came across.
October 24th
Liver Bird!
October 25th
Lovely vanilla-scented candle.
October 26th
I’m unsure whether they’re good books or not..
October 27th
Laundry. I did three loads in the washing machine at home, then took them over to dry. The driers are huge... and a nice shade of green.
October 28th
Chris? Chris who? I’ve seen this in several places in the area.
October 29th
Speed camera.
October 30th
The girl we lived with at our last house left these paper mache things at our place last week, to dry - her house is out of the question because she has a lively dog. They’re for a kid’s Halloween parade.
Speaking of meals - the cooker STILL hasn't been fixed. I feel really unhealthy, I've been eating chips and/or burgers nearly every night and I've probably shortened my life by doing so :P I want pasta, rice, potatoes. Real food.
I don't talk much about my job search, do I? Well, after six months of receiving Job Seeker’s Allowance, I’ve been put on New Deal. I meet with my advisor once a week now. This should help me get a job. I’m starting a two-week course on November 17th. I’ve also been put on a list to wait for an interview, to do admin work at the Royal Hospital. It would be a good opportunity for me, but to be honest, I’m bricking it! The thought of interviews and pressure and answering telephones makes me so nervous. I have social anxiety, I don’t believe in myself, I’m not very good with people, and I have a tendency to mess up and look stupid and clueless. I do want to get a job, but it’s hard to face the reality of actually doing it. I wish I wasn’t like this. Life would be a lot easier if I wasn’t afraid of normal things.
I guess now isn’t the time to worry about it... I’m going to get showered and dressed soon and focus on enjoying the next few days.
Here’s a catch up on my Project 365 pictures.
October 21st
It’s a tattoo parlour on my street.
October 22nd
Mmm bacon.
October 23rd
Lonely little flower I came across.
October 24th
Liver Bird!
October 25th
Lovely vanilla-scented candle.
October 26th
I’m unsure whether they’re good books or not..
October 27th
Laundry. I did three loads in the washing machine at home, then took them over to dry. The driers are huge... and a nice shade of green.
October 28th
Chris? Chris who? I’ve seen this in several places in the area.
October 29th
Speed camera.
October 30th
The girl we lived with at our last house left these paper mache things at our place last week, to dry - her house is out of the question because she has a lively dog. They’re for a kid’s Halloween parade.
