Listening to Tegan and Sarah
Suddenly I feel like I might've felt before those times.
Suddenly today, with some pumpkin flavored coffee (a luxury I will soon no longer afford- which only makes it sweeter) I feel like the person who I used to be before I ripped my roots from the ground and threw them all over the Earth.
I feel today like I felt before I met you. Or before I thought there was anything between us. Back when we were just friends who had been writing letters for years. I feel like I did before I met HIM and before I became a toy and a wreck and a wretch. I feel like I did before I met Jon and understood that my body is a beautiful thing that can give more than pleasure but a feeling of self assurance that stretches beyond myself- but to someone else.
I feel like I did when pure ambition drove me, and none of the bitterness. And my plate was fresh and no one had touched me.
I feel like leaves are falling in me, and I like that feeling.
maybe nobody ever did touch me.
Suddenly today, with some pumpkin flavored coffee (a luxury I will soon no longer afford- which only makes it sweeter) I feel like the person who I used to be before I ripped my roots from the ground and threw them all over the Earth.
I feel today like I felt before I met you. Or before I thought there was anything between us. Back when we were just friends who had been writing letters for years. I feel like I did before I met HIM and before I became a toy and a wreck and a wretch. I feel like I did before I met Jon and understood that my body is a beautiful thing that can give more than pleasure but a feeling of self assurance that stretches beyond myself- but to someone else.
I feel like I did when pure ambition drove me, and none of the bitterness. And my plate was fresh and no one had touched me.
I feel like leaves are falling in me, and I like that feeling.
maybe nobody ever did touch me.