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been a long time since i've last been here. half the time my hiatus can be attributed to laziness, the other half is usually me not knowing what to say, or rather feeling that the words and sentences that i string together are somewhat inadequate of fully expressing my inner thoughts. but since it's the end of the year, i guess that calls for a cliche summation-of-the-year-cum-resolutions entry.
when i was roused from my sleep this morning and it dawned upon me that it was the last day of 2010, i felt panic creep into me and i was overwhelmed by a sense of profuse wistfulness. countless of questions and flashbacks of the year loomed in my head. where did the year go? how come time flew by so quickly? what have i been doing this year? did i waste it or make full use of it? do i have any regrets or?
then i concurred that that this year has been extremely good to me and even though we always have to improve ourselves and make better the future as compared to yesteryear, i've also been taught to be contented with what i have. and i'm very indeed. i am very thankful for (almost) everything the higher being above has blessed me with this year and it almost makes me feel a little anxious of the uncertainty of a brand new year ahead. i guess what always spooks us is the unknown, especially for me because i like things to be predictable. but that's just me. love didn't fail to provide and results for these two semesters made me believe once again that hard work does pay off and i guess i will continue trying my best in the arena of studies. and even though planning nearly killed me, being the 'perfectionist' i'm when it comes to certain things, i had a great 21st party. i went on two trips, to my childhood dream destination gold coast and good ol' bangkok and that partially fulfills the wanderlust in me. but we always want more and it is obviously not quenched as of yet so one resolution will be to visit new places in this upcoming year. i think the only big bad thing that brought me down this year was losing this particular group of friends. that greatly affected me initially but i no longer feel any regret or pain because the friends who are still standing by me are enough for me and i don't feel like i'm missing anything at all. my conscience is clear; i hurt no one and i guess people do come and go. so second resolution of the year: to not be hung up and learn to let go when the time calls for it.
to the people who brought joy and sparkle to my life, thank you. one of my resolutions would be to do the same as well.
1 year = 12 months = 365 days. i hope all of us make the very best out of this brand new year and spend it to the fullest. cheers :)