Family Issues
Man I have yet to go and get my Tatttoo done. I have got the design already done, I am just going to do a tree of life bordered with knotwork and it will cover my entire shoulder or at least the majority. The problem is, My parents are being really anal about me and my money all of a sudden and acting like I am still in Jr High or somthing. I hate it. This whole ordeal has reminded me of why I like to be so far away from my parants cause for once in my life, I am free to make my own choices whith out anyone trying to convince me to not do it. I wish that for just once my parents could accept the fact that I am not blatenly trying to rebel as they always assume and just be ok in knowing that the main reason why I would like to get another tattoo is simply because I like them. It is a birthday present to myself if you will simply put and nothing more. When ever it comes to things that may affect me for the rest of my life they are always trying to at least get me to think about it, the problem is, I have been thinking about getting another tattoo on my 19 birthday when i got the one for my 18 and I am also considering getting another one for my 20th b day and so on. Because they don't necissarily agree with it or the so called image that they think i am trying to portray they just do everything with in their power to keep me from doing it and that goes for anything that I want to do that they disagree with. I am never really allowed to make my own mistakes and let them know about it, they just assume that because they see somthing as a mistake in my life that that is what it will be. It is really annoying and it actually bothers me a great deal seeing as all they support for me are the things that they agree with or that they think might be good for my future. I wish that I could just do stuff with out them always on my back about how I can't do this if I get this, or I can't have this if I want this. it just pisses me off majorly cause that is pretty much what I have dealt with my whole life. If me getting a tattoo really is a mistake than the only way for me to learn that is by getting another one. on top of that something else that bugs the crap out of me is that my parents are talking about getting a paintin for the living room. I am just wanting a piece of art that I will have for the rest of my life and can take anywhere. I would rather invest money into that than a stupid painting that has a chance of being thrown out cause of lack of space or burning in a fire or being ruined by finger prints or some other force of nature. so yeah I am hopeing to go to the tattoo parlor on friday with or without my parents concent not to be rebelious but so that I can just live my life for a change instead of letting my parents live their life through me. so yeah it is starting to suck being home again cause the same issues that I had when I lived with my parents before I left have surfaced yet again. guess i couldn't expect for them to stay hidden for too long tho since they have been there for the majority of my life anyways, I just wish that there was a way to make my parents understand me.