thinking... waiting
Is it ridiculous f me to be scared of love. All I’ve ever wanted was his love, to feel it, see it, believe it but know I think I see and I guess I can feel it and yet it is too hard to believe. Is it possible that all the disappointment and heart break has lead me to not believe in love?
I’m so confused and I just don’t know what to do or feel. This past weekend in Vegas for new years was the happiest weekend of my life… I felt loved and I had fun and everything was cool. Pero aqui estoy esperando que llege el dolor. It seams impossible to me that I’m allowed so much happiness; I keep waiting for the boom to hit.