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I am tired of thinking and saying and doing all the wrong things.
One mistake after another. It never really seems to end.
I must stop complaining. I have completely alienated myself because of complaining and, I suppose, talking.
Everything is so superficial, almost every conversation. Lately one thing just trips me and it's all down here from there.
I wonder why the facade I put up can't stay on completely. I would be safer if it would. When it comes down to it, if it were not for my faith I do not think I would be able to maintain this. Maybe Robie's right. Showing this extreme emotion is not worth it. Gosh, I want so much for it to go away because I'm tired of dealing with it alone. But on the other hand I shouldn't be complaining at all. It could be worse. I could be in Darfur.
Must try again.
One mistake after another. It never really seems to end.
I must stop complaining. I have completely alienated myself because of complaining and, I suppose, talking.
Everything is so superficial, almost every conversation. Lately one thing just trips me and it's all down here from there.
I wonder why the facade I put up can't stay on completely. I would be safer if it would. When it comes down to it, if it were not for my faith I do not think I would be able to maintain this. Maybe Robie's right. Showing this extreme emotion is not worth it. Gosh, I want so much for it to go away because I'm tired of dealing with it alone. But on the other hand I shouldn't be complaining at all. It could be worse. I could be in Darfur.
Must try again.