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i almost lost my cell phone yesterday. i dropped it on delivery in the middle of the street. two hours later, i drove back to the house and found it, soaked with rain. it still works fine.
other than my obvious luck, im feeling better about somethings and generally shitty about others. life in general i suppose is getting better, certain things that haunted me for a while are going away, but theyre being replaced with other nightmares. basically, via phone treatment is reminding me of how it was when the first nightmare hit. always trying to get off, silent when on the phone, never calling when its time. is it happening again? or is it minimilizing what you dont want (gfbf) just to keep a friend? thats what i feel like. feels crappy. i just want to talk.
ive been drawing/digital painting a lot. it entertains me for a bit i guess. im still bored most of the time. i have no video games and no gf to talk to when shes not here, as aim and the phone is like talking to my hand, the phone moreso. so i draw, or stare at the screen, or eat candy. countdown the minutes till work. wonder whats going on. what shes doing. why i dont skate, and why i cant draw.
now that ive written everything i can think of at the moment, i wonder what im going to do now...
ive checked myspace, lj and all my messageboards like 1200 times already.
you know my number, gimme a call so we can talk sometime.
other than my obvious luck, im feeling better about somethings and generally shitty about others. life in general i suppose is getting better, certain things that haunted me for a while are going away, but theyre being replaced with other nightmares. basically, via phone treatment is reminding me of how it was when the first nightmare hit. always trying to get off, silent when on the phone, never calling when its time. is it happening again? or is it minimilizing what you dont want (gfbf) just to keep a friend? thats what i feel like. feels crappy. i just want to talk.
ive been drawing/digital painting a lot. it entertains me for a bit i guess. im still bored most of the time. i have no video games and no gf to talk to when shes not here, as aim and the phone is like talking to my hand, the phone moreso. so i draw, or stare at the screen, or eat candy. countdown the minutes till work. wonder whats going on. what shes doing. why i dont skate, and why i cant draw.
now that ive written everything i can think of at the moment, i wonder what im going to do now...
ive checked myspace, lj and all my messageboards like 1200 times already.
you know my number, gimme a call so we can talk sometime.