Pause
I'm so tired. Really, the effort to walk up some stairs is huge... and yet, I want to ski more and more and more. The challenge, it's addictive in a... it's so horrible why bother doing it and yet at the end of the day it's so wonderful... challenging your body, mind and whatever else... there is nothing quite like off piste skiing with Yves & co.
But the days rest tomorrow is going to be lovely... easy going? No. lmao. Easier? Yes. Phew.
I wrote two tutorials today... #1 and #2
Saw Peter online today, but we didn't talk - he was set to idle. I feel really mixed up about him at the moment, not very emotionally, more mentally... just kinda... what to do now. Not that I need to do anything either... but like, he has a girlfriend and getting my head around the fact that
#1 he's not my boyfriend
#2 he's not mine and someone else... has him?
#3 we're not friends/more/less anymore... just neutral
#4 he has a new girlfriend.. who does fuck knows what... and he is hers...
but it's not even the relationship stuff, it's just..... weird how things aren't like they were, but like I can see it clearly and not emotionally. I'm not upset, just kind of... coming through the fog and realising things and it's like "Oh... that's odd".
Got any wise words for me?
But the days rest tomorrow is going to be lovely... easy going? No. lmao. Easier? Yes. Phew.
I wrote two tutorials today... #1 and #2
Saw Peter online today, but we didn't talk - he was set to idle. I feel really mixed up about him at the moment, not very emotionally, more mentally... just kinda... what to do now. Not that I need to do anything either... but like, he has a girlfriend and getting my head around the fact that
#1 he's not my boyfriend
#2 he's not mine and someone else... has him?
#3 we're not friends/more/less anymore... just neutral
#4 he has a new girlfriend.. who does fuck knows what... and he is hers...
but it's not even the relationship stuff, it's just..... weird how things aren't like they were, but like I can see it clearly and not emotionally. I'm not upset, just kind of... coming through the fog and realising things and it's like "Oh... that's odd".
Got any wise words for me?