I miss Atlanta already
As I take the steps
To go out to the Ice
I miss my people already.
I know it's not for months. I know at some level I should remember that it's not guarenteed at all, and that I'm only just barely qualified so I should be wary of attaching to hard to this....
But I felt so overwhelmed all day that it took me forever to even engage with my feels. I talked to Heatherby and I found that really, I miss it here. I'm not even gone yet. I don't even feel settled. I just. Process missing in the future and the past, not so much in the present.
I miss sweat lodges. I miss stone soups. I miss spacey long talks with Heather McCoy. I miss walking in the woods with April, then Taz. I miss finding magic with Belenen. I miss how rude we are to each other as a way of showing love. I miss... my community, my Home.
I want to go Home, even though I'm already home. Like a child that's crying about wanting to go home when they're at their house, but getting ready for the day.
To go out to the Ice
I miss my people already.
I know it's not for months. I know at some level I should remember that it's not guarenteed at all, and that I'm only just barely qualified so I should be wary of attaching to hard to this....
But I felt so overwhelmed all day that it took me forever to even engage with my feels. I talked to Heatherby and I found that really, I miss it here. I'm not even gone yet. I don't even feel settled. I just. Process missing in the future and the past, not so much in the present.
I miss sweat lodges. I miss stone soups. I miss spacey long talks with Heather McCoy. I miss walking in the woods with April, then Taz. I miss finding magic with Belenen. I miss how rude we are to each other as a way of showing love. I miss... my community, my Home.
I want to go Home, even though I'm already home. Like a child that's crying about wanting to go home when they're at their house, but getting ready for the day.