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On Friday I decided to eat the tuna, which made my cals for the day 180.
On Saturday I went to the beach and laid out. I'm really sunburned, but only on the front of me...I look retarded. My stomach was at least a little flat from me eating next to nothing the past few days. We stopped for lunch on the way down to the beach but I said I'd already eaten so I just sat there while everyone else ate. I didn't end up eating until 5pm, but since I knew I wouldn't have to be in my bathing suit any more and since I usually let myself eat more on the weekends I had a pretty big dinner: few bites of an awesome blossom, roll, grilled pork chop, a few fries, a few bites of chili...yeahhhhh. Then I binged at like 2am and had a slice of pizza and mac and cheese.
On Sunday I had 2 bowls of cereal and then a few tortilla chips and a few bites of a burrito at dinner. Pretty much I was too fucked up to care about eating last night so I just kind of sat at the table and stared off into space. I went to a sports bar in Chapel Hill yesterday to watch the UNC/Gtown game with the guy I'm dating and his friends. I took an adderall before I went over to his place because I was really tired and didn't want to seem dead. Then we finished a bottle of wine he had and went over to his friends' place where we did shots and smoked some amazing pot. Then we went out to the sports bar and drank a bunch of pitchers and during half time we went out to the car and smoked up some more. So yeah...I was retarded. Good times though.
So I've definitely been slacking in my restricting lately. I seemed to find some motivation when I knew I'd be going to the beach and I'm determined to keep it up. So here's the plan: I can only have 1 meal a day which will almost always be dinner. Dinner needs to be a lean cuisine or something else that is less than 350cals. If I'm absolutely dying I can have a healthy snack, but I may not go over 600 cals during any week day. On the weekends I can go up to 1000 cals to keep my metabolism up and to keep my from binging. So there are the rules, I need to stick to them.
~Kate
On Saturday I went to the beach and laid out. I'm really sunburned, but only on the front of me...I look retarded. My stomach was at least a little flat from me eating next to nothing the past few days. We stopped for lunch on the way down to the beach but I said I'd already eaten so I just sat there while everyone else ate. I didn't end up eating until 5pm, but since I knew I wouldn't have to be in my bathing suit any more and since I usually let myself eat more on the weekends I had a pretty big dinner: few bites of an awesome blossom, roll, grilled pork chop, a few fries, a few bites of chili...yeahhhhh. Then I binged at like 2am and had a slice of pizza and mac and cheese.
On Sunday I had 2 bowls of cereal and then a few tortilla chips and a few bites of a burrito at dinner. Pretty much I was too fucked up to care about eating last night so I just kind of sat at the table and stared off into space. I went to a sports bar in Chapel Hill yesterday to watch the UNC/Gtown game with the guy I'm dating and his friends. I took an adderall before I went over to his place because I was really tired and didn't want to seem dead. Then we finished a bottle of wine he had and went over to his friends' place where we did shots and smoked some amazing pot. Then we went out to the sports bar and drank a bunch of pitchers and during half time we went out to the car and smoked up some more. So yeah...I was retarded. Good times though.
So I've definitely been slacking in my restricting lately. I seemed to find some motivation when I knew I'd be going to the beach and I'm determined to keep it up. So here's the plan: I can only have 1 meal a day which will almost always be dinner. Dinner needs to be a lean cuisine or something else that is less than 350cals. If I'm absolutely dying I can have a healthy snack, but I may not go over 600 cals during any week day. On the weekends I can go up to 1000 cals to keep my metabolism up and to keep my from binging. So there are the rules, I need to stick to them.
~Kate