Not okay. I am not okay at all. *Locked from Dove*
I'm totally losing it. Back to 3 day a week therapy, but everything seems to be going wrong despite the professional intervention.
I feel like everybody's decided to gang up on me. But I know that's a childish way to feel, so I don't want to say that out loud. I wrote it here instead, I guess. Feel free to call me on it, or whatever.
OOC: "Just tell me one thing, Dari." Koga mumbled to Dari from across the room, taking advantage of the brief interlude that Dove was out of the room. "It's obvious you're hiding something. There's something you don't want me to know. I don't know if it's just embarrassing, or you're angry with me, or you've done something... but..."
Dari kept silent, his back turned, eating the toasted tomato sandwich Dove had made him (the 5th sandwich she'd offered him that day), waiting for Koga to finish his thought.
"...Please tell me it's something I can forgive you for." Koga croaked out, with a note of desperation in his voice. "If I fight with you there's no way... She'll..."
Dari closed his eyes and swallowed heavily. Taking a deep breath, and making a significant effort to keep his face neutral, he turned to face Koga. "...I'm sorry." He said slowly, looking just briefly distraught as Koga covered his face with his hands in grief. "I don't think you will. ...I'm very sorry for that, Koga. Really, I am."
"I don't want to lose this again, Dari..." Koga replied, pleading.
"It's done." Dari shook his head. "I will do my best to hide it from you the rest of my life, but it's done."
I feel like everybody's decided to gang up on me. But I know that's a childish way to feel, so I don't want to say that out loud. I wrote it here instead, I guess. Feel free to call me on it, or whatever.
OOC: "Just tell me one thing, Dari." Koga mumbled to Dari from across the room, taking advantage of the brief interlude that Dove was out of the room. "It's obvious you're hiding something. There's something you don't want me to know. I don't know if it's just embarrassing, or you're angry with me, or you've done something... but..."
Dari kept silent, his back turned, eating the toasted tomato sandwich Dove had made him (the 5th sandwich she'd offered him that day), waiting for Koga to finish his thought.
"...Please tell me it's something I can forgive you for." Koga croaked out, with a note of desperation in his voice. "If I fight with you there's no way... She'll..."
Dari closed his eyes and swallowed heavily. Taking a deep breath, and making a significant effort to keep his face neutral, he turned to face Koga. "...I'm sorry." He said slowly, looking just briefly distraught as Koga covered his face with his hands in grief. "I don't think you will. ...I'm very sorry for that, Koga. Really, I am."
"I don't want to lose this again, Dari..." Koga replied, pleading.
"It's done." Dari shook his head. "I will do my best to hide it from you the rest of my life, but it's done."