*LOCKED* I can't take this much longer...
Early on it seemed as if I could reach some sort of compromise with the creature that possessed me, and in fact I did. My father was extricated from Azkaban after gaining some humility (clearly not enough, judging by that incident in Arundel) and I'm able to contact him and track his movements- options I would not otherwise have.
Unfortunately I lack something fundamental to make my choices. FREEDOM. For MONTHS this damned parasite has been hiding inside me, making me run errands for nefarious (presumably, as sometimes the tasks genuinely perplex me) purposes, stay up all hours of the night, and mislead my friends and Dove.
I am quite certain the day is fast approaching where this monstrosity will make me strike out and kill somebody, and I don't wish to bear the guilt or the consequences.
Of course, there will be consequences if I find a way to break free, too. The idea of being in close proximity to Koga makes me admittedly nervous. I don't want him knowing what I've been up to- at the very least, what I have done willingly. Hopefully his recent confrontation will drive him to stay the hell out of my head.
...But then if he had bothered to check before now maybe I wouldn't be in this Goddamned situation.
Unfortunately I lack something fundamental to make my choices. FREEDOM. For MONTHS this damned parasite has been hiding inside me, making me run errands for nefarious (presumably, as sometimes the tasks genuinely perplex me) purposes, stay up all hours of the night, and mislead my friends and Dove.
I am quite certain the day is fast approaching where this monstrosity will make me strike out and kill somebody, and I don't wish to bear the guilt or the consequences.
Of course, there will be consequences if I find a way to break free, too. The idea of being in close proximity to Koga makes me admittedly nervous. I don't want him knowing what I've been up to- at the very least, what I have done willingly. Hopefully his recent confrontation will drive him to stay the hell out of my head.
...But then if he had bothered to check before now maybe I wouldn't be in this Goddamned situation.