it can't be the end...not yet
death is such a sucky part of life. it sucks the most having to watch it unfold before your eyes causing someone who has always been the strongest person that you know to turn into a ghost of who they used to be. it sucks when that person just happens to be the only person in the entire world who actually gets you even though there are almost a century of experiences that stand between her life and mine. and the worst part is that when she's actually gone, just one little fight will dissolve the family because there will be no one there anymore to hold any of the fraying threads in place. the family that no matter how fucked up we become, i still can't live without... so when this day comes what comes next?? where do we all go and what do we all do. i just don't know anymore i just don't