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this whole snowball effect thingy blows and its not getting better which is why i guess they call it a snowball thingy. i feel like im holding on until it all passes over. i keep thinking that it will, but i'm starting to lose faith in that idea which also isn't helping. i know i've made it through before but the journey to the otherside has always been a disatrous one. i just need to convince myself that i'm up for it this time and that i have spun enough of a web for it to eventually catch me and i have to believe that there is an eventually otherwise things would seem just that much worse... and i'm rambling again...