the loudest laugher
i came really close to pissing in my levis last night. these have certainly been the best days of my life. i am more than serious. i dont think much can get better. i am dating jordan. weve been dating for a little over 2 weeks. he is really amazing. ive never been treated better and he seems to be really interested in me. i dont want to like him as much as i do because he will always be gone. his band tours all the time. emily says to just have fun and dont expect anything. great advice and i will try to follow it but i havent felt this much for someone for years. its scary. i have the best friends in the entire world. emily got a job with me at jack stack. rachel ran through some ornamental grass outside of dennys and fell flat. thats when i almost pissed my pants. plus i was laughing so hard i couldve puked. we went to see jordan and tim play in lawrence and all i was doing during their set was trying to make emily and rachel laugh. that is always my goal. i love them and laura. i really wish i had a camcorder taped to my shoulder so i can keep all of these good times. luke called me and then happened to need a place to stay so luke, lennon, brian, brett and heman all slept over. i got a car. i guess i have good credit so i dont have to make big payments. my dad and mom are really enjoying each other. my sister and her boyfriend are enjoying each other. i get to see bella, jordan and marlee the day after christmas in san fransico. im happy they love living there. jordan, my brother, is going to get a bookdeal with another publishing company but wont tell me the name til its finalized. i had my cooking class yesterday and my team finished first. we made four sauces and the chef said the consistency and taste were great. i made the tomato sauce. i love that class so much. i love all my classes. ryan knows my guitar teacher and my guitar. i got a fender telecaster made in america. its a deep red and semi hollow. he saw it at quigleys awhile back and was going to buy it. my guitar teacher is really impressed. i got a raise at work. i love hosting there too. tonight im seeing the decemberists with emily and maybe jordan. he is recording tonight. i am happy that their band is getting successful but i wish i knew what was going to happen between us. rolan bolan knows about them. trex's son likes the supernauts. well i just dont know. i am happy and so satisfied with everything. i hope the same for everyone.