The Dragon
I made a decision today to stay home alone for New Year's Eve. As midnight approached, I realized it was the wrong decision. I have never been alone for the new year before and it's not something I ever want to do again. I always found New Year's Eve to be very sad. I think about all the time wasted in the past year, all the stupid mistakes that I can't fix any more, everything I wish I had done. When I am with other people, I am distracted. When I am alone, I am overwhelmed. My first twenty minutes of 2012 were full of tears and heartache.
I am so tired of being alone.
I am so tired of being alone.