theres more dog poop noww..
last weekend before school starts up again. this sucks so much fucking ass!@# ;[ hope everyone enjoys the last of their weekend, cuz we'll all be hittin' the books on monday..woopie!
k first off.. i want to make a shout out to a person i did yesterday but feel the need i must again because she's my baby goat and i feel so horrible about whats happened to her in the past two weeks. brey ; satisfying i really hope you feel better hun and if not, im always here if you need someone to talk to..the offers on the table =)
last night was just too good. Sean and i stayed up till 5:00 in the morning, talking and using our web cams. i slept till 2:30 haha it was so much fun. i hope to do it again sometime. god, i love him so much!@#
ahh today is friday. it's almost saturday since it's almost midnight but you know how we do. i just kinda did, nothing today. it was amazing, i still had a good time. Sean didnt go out tonight, and neither did i so we both chilled online and the phone and talked as usual. it's so great to have someone to TALK to. I mean he's a guy ; girls hardly TALK to guys, am i right or what? But i love how we can just sit around on a friday night and do nothing but talk. it's wonderful and makes me happy <33
ah fuck. have to go back to school monday, as im sure alot of people do. that really sucks a big fucking donkey dick you kno? i hate school. i hate it so much. i hate everything about it and everyone in it. they tell me i have to go there to learn. mhm. but if im getting bad grades then apparently IM NOT LEARNING. I do horribly in school. I dont pay attention, because my mind wanders. it always has, and im sure it always will.
the shrink i think im still seeing, even tho i havent gone to her in so long says she thinks i have ADD. and thats probably why my grades suck and my mind wanders. I cant help it. i notice myself not being able to sit still anywhere, i stare at walls and shit for no reason. I'll look at a tv screen as im watching a show and ill try to be paying attention but i'll have no idea wtf is going on. Im sure alot of people do that but i actually feel STUPID when i do it. i dunno why, i feel like im retarded or something and i need major help oy!@# ;x
im gonna make this year a fucking good one. lots of shit is supposed to go down. Seans supposed to be moving in over the summer when he graduates..i hope thats happening<33 i get my license in a couple months. like 9, but thats okie heh. but imma get my permit soon, cuz my dad said so!@# Ive had so many bad years..like when i didnt have Sean, i wondered why the fuck i was alive and why i was put on this earth. i wondered why i should stay. i didnt want to. but now im good, i have a reason for living. my baby<33
i dunno what im doing tomorrow. my dad wants me to take down all the christmas decorations but ugh i dont wanna. i told him i'd do it next weekend cuz he said he's going to Georgia. i dunno if seans going out either, he might. but if he does, ill find something to do. i guess we'll see what happens when the time comes. but until then im chillin yo :D i know this entry sucked a big ass and all but whutever it's something. so gimme some lovin' and im out like a mother MCL <333
PS ; new profile on adorkable17 ..check that shit out
-freek
sean..you're amazing 1.17.01<33
k first off.. i want to make a shout out to a person i did yesterday but feel the need i must again because she's my baby goat and i feel so horrible about whats happened to her in the past two weeks. brey ; satisfying i really hope you feel better hun and if not, im always here if you need someone to talk to..the offers on the table =)
last night was just too good. Sean and i stayed up till 5:00 in the morning, talking and using our web cams. i slept till 2:30 haha it was so much fun. i hope to do it again sometime. god, i love him so much!@#
ahh today is friday. it's almost saturday since it's almost midnight but you know how we do. i just kinda did, nothing today. it was amazing, i still had a good time. Sean didnt go out tonight, and neither did i so we both chilled online and the phone and talked as usual. it's so great to have someone to TALK to. I mean he's a guy ; girls hardly TALK to guys, am i right or what? But i love how we can just sit around on a friday night and do nothing but talk. it's wonderful and makes me happy <33
ah fuck. have to go back to school monday, as im sure alot of people do. that really sucks a big fucking donkey dick you kno? i hate school. i hate it so much. i hate everything about it and everyone in it. they tell me i have to go there to learn. mhm. but if im getting bad grades then apparently IM NOT LEARNING. I do horribly in school. I dont pay attention, because my mind wanders. it always has, and im sure it always will.
the shrink i think im still seeing, even tho i havent gone to her in so long says she thinks i have ADD. and thats probably why my grades suck and my mind wanders. I cant help it. i notice myself not being able to sit still anywhere, i stare at walls and shit for no reason. I'll look at a tv screen as im watching a show and ill try to be paying attention but i'll have no idea wtf is going on. Im sure alot of people do that but i actually feel STUPID when i do it. i dunno why, i feel like im retarded or something and i need major help oy!@# ;x
im gonna make this year a fucking good one. lots of shit is supposed to go down. Seans supposed to be moving in over the summer when he graduates..i hope thats happening<33 i get my license in a couple months. like 9, but thats okie heh. but imma get my permit soon, cuz my dad said so!@# Ive had so many bad years..like when i didnt have Sean, i wondered why the fuck i was alive and why i was put on this earth. i wondered why i should stay. i didnt want to. but now im good, i have a reason for living. my baby<33
i dunno what im doing tomorrow. my dad wants me to take down all the christmas decorations but ugh i dont wanna. i told him i'd do it next weekend cuz he said he's going to Georgia. i dunno if seans going out either, he might. but if he does, ill find something to do. i guess we'll see what happens when the time comes. but until then im chillin yo :D i know this entry sucked a big ass and all but whutever it's something. so gimme some lovin' and im out like a mother MCL <333
PS ; new profile on adorkable17 ..check that shit out
-freek
sean..you're amazing 1.17.01<33