exerpts from other places
Emotional Curb Stomp Tonight.
It sucks when you make mistakes in life, try your damdest to overcome your shortfalls, strive every single day of your fucking life to become a better man..a strong, intelligent man. I have been through some of the most trying months of my life recently. From family deaths, to financial pitfalls, to just loosing faith in humanity over all.
I want to believe all of this is real : but I have yet to see evidence that points to the contrary.
I am a people watcher. I enjoy sitting around and just observing people in how they react individually, or in groups, public places, private places, whatever the situation may be (it didn't always used to be like this, but) And from what I've observed over the past few months: People just have their own hidden agendas or motives for everyone they are close to. It's obvious just in picking up on random conversation by random people walking by at random times. (DT, example) ... It's almost as if no one even has the ability right now to even care for a fellow human being. at all. We're all just in this for ourselves ... fuck the next guy in line.
Just to see all of that work set ablaze by everyone who claims to care about you. In the end, everyone has their own agendas and their own lives.
No one would give a shit less about the person who is begging you for money on the corner: Or, your very own closest companions throughout life ... It's all selfish. I am just sick of it.
I would like to believe that there are still real hearts out there, somewhere...but, the more I see, the less I know.
It sucks when you make mistakes in life, try your damdest to overcome your shortfalls, strive every single day of your fucking life to become a better man..a strong, intelligent man. I have been through some of the most trying months of my life recently. From family deaths, to financial pitfalls, to just loosing faith in humanity over all.
I want to believe all of this is real : but I have yet to see evidence that points to the contrary.
I am a people watcher. I enjoy sitting around and just observing people in how they react individually, or in groups, public places, private places, whatever the situation may be (it didn't always used to be like this, but) And from what I've observed over the past few months: People just have their own hidden agendas or motives for everyone they are close to. It's obvious just in picking up on random conversation by random people walking by at random times. (DT, example) ... It's almost as if no one even has the ability right now to even care for a fellow human being. at all. We're all just in this for ourselves ... fuck the next guy in line.
Just to see all of that work set ablaze by everyone who claims to care about you. In the end, everyone has their own agendas and their own lives.
No one would give a shit less about the person who is begging you for money on the corner: Or, your very own closest companions throughout life ... It's all selfish. I am just sick of it.
I would like to believe that there are still real hearts out there, somewhere...but, the more I see, the less I know.