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Yelled at my english teacher today. I just blew up. I dont know what happened. Ive just been so stressed latly. I was right about something and he told me I wasnt and I got mad. He apologized but really I needed to apologize. I definetly had an attitude problem.
So the band talked crap about the gaurd today. We got 5th. I understand why they think we suck I mean we do, but we are a "family" why cant they just support us? they dont understand. They dont know what it is like to not have your teacher show up. They dont know what it is like to not have thier show written. Or to learn parts of thier show two days before state. They have no idea. They are all judgemental, and as ditzy as they think the gaurd can be, really they are the stupid ones. I wonder how the band would sound if they didnt have thier music all fucking summer and all year. Yes Im angry Im angry at everyone. Im angry at everyone in gaurd who didnt have thier best run through. Im angry at myself for not cleaning the flags more. Im angry at our coaches for never coming to help us. Im angry at the band for never supporting us. Im angry at all those pussies who quit. We had 22 at the begginning it dwindled to 13. 13.
I also feel bad. I tried to do everything that I could and I feel like I failed. The drum line got first place. We let down the drum line. We let down the band but especially the drumline. If I wore in the drum line I would hate us. I just want to quit gaurd today. Its not worth the time.
Our coaches failed us. We didnt even have work for alot of the show. Way to get all the work to us before summer ended. Thanks for coaching reed too. Thanks for actually showing up. Thanks for leaving us when you found out the gaurd score. I feel like Mr.Moffit was the only one who didnt abandon us when we sucked. The only one. I hate all our coaches now, I cant believe they just left us. All year I was begging them to stop rewriting the work
and just write new stuff. But no one wanted to listen no one cared. I cant believe they just left us. Sorry we lost but its your fault. Thanks for sticking around.
So now the band hates us our coaches have abandoned us, My cousins an idiot. Life sucks. Im so angry. People are stupid.
If you think about it you can eliminate a lot of problems if before getting mad at your friends you think, just for a second. I mean if these people are your friends then they must have a reason for feeling the way they do. Before you just start attacking them try to figure out why they would be upset put yourself in thier place and ask yourself how would I feel. If you do these things and really take time to consider why Ill bet your friendships will become stronger and youll understand each other more. I dont know I think every once and awhile I hit on something profound and I feel like I should share it with everyone becuase I wish someone had told me. mb Im just stupid.. I dont know... im very upset I wish the gaurd didnt suck. I wish I could fix everything.
seeing red again.
I will close my eyes and wait until it disapears... its only in my head right? only in my head...
So the band talked crap about the gaurd today. We got 5th. I understand why they think we suck I mean we do, but we are a "family" why cant they just support us? they dont understand. They dont know what it is like to not have your teacher show up. They dont know what it is like to not have thier show written. Or to learn parts of thier show two days before state. They have no idea. They are all judgemental, and as ditzy as they think the gaurd can be, really they are the stupid ones. I wonder how the band would sound if they didnt have thier music all fucking summer and all year. Yes Im angry Im angry at everyone. Im angry at everyone in gaurd who didnt have thier best run through. Im angry at myself for not cleaning the flags more. Im angry at our coaches for never coming to help us. Im angry at the band for never supporting us. Im angry at all those pussies who quit. We had 22 at the begginning it dwindled to 13. 13.
I also feel bad. I tried to do everything that I could and I feel like I failed. The drum line got first place. We let down the drum line. We let down the band but especially the drumline. If I wore in the drum line I would hate us. I just want to quit gaurd today. Its not worth the time.
Our coaches failed us. We didnt even have work for alot of the show. Way to get all the work to us before summer ended. Thanks for coaching reed too. Thanks for actually showing up. Thanks for leaving us when you found out the gaurd score. I feel like Mr.Moffit was the only one who didnt abandon us when we sucked. The only one. I hate all our coaches now, I cant believe they just left us. All year I was begging them to stop rewriting the work
and just write new stuff. But no one wanted to listen no one cared. I cant believe they just left us. Sorry we lost but its your fault. Thanks for sticking around.
So now the band hates us our coaches have abandoned us, My cousins an idiot. Life sucks. Im so angry. People are stupid.
If you think about it you can eliminate a lot of problems if before getting mad at your friends you think, just for a second. I mean if these people are your friends then they must have a reason for feeling the way they do. Before you just start attacking them try to figure out why they would be upset put yourself in thier place and ask yourself how would I feel. If you do these things and really take time to consider why Ill bet your friendships will become stronger and youll understand each other more. I dont know I think every once and awhile I hit on something profound and I feel like I should share it with everyone becuase I wish someone had told me. mb Im just stupid.. I dont know... im very upset I wish the gaurd didnt suck. I wish I could fix everything.
seeing red again.
I will close my eyes and wait until it disapears... its only in my head right? only in my head...