oh my
Oh dear heavens, I am completely backwards. That's the only bad part about not having class first session and not working a real schedule. I have nothing to keep me normal. My sleeping is backwards. I'm awake all night and sleep all day, which by Thursday is going to destroy me because I have to be at work at 9 am that day AND Friday. And believe me, over the counter sleeping pills have entered my mind, but then I remember that summer between freshman and sophomore years when I took them and each morning I was dizzy and passing out. So, that's not the best solution perhaps. So how do I get back on track? I'm thinking: it's about 6 am right now. I should stay up as long as possible today. And not sleep. That way by tonight, I'll be so sleepy I'll pass right out. However; I need to take a nap sometime today bc I'm "on call" at work for 5:30, and while I don't believe that I'll be needed, it would be a good idea to be prepared in the way of sleep just in case they do. So! Maybe I'll read, or keep browsing the internet for stuff.
Well, I've started a list of 50 books I want to read before the end of the year. I actually started the list a while back (while school was still going) but haven't had time to really read or do anything with the list until now, because school is out. I have about 31 books on the list so far that I want to read. And I've read 7. But those 7 have been within the past month and a half. Crazy. I need to add another 19 books to the list. Hmmm, I'll take suggestions too!
Next: Ok, I've become one of those girls. One of the girls who's started planning her wedding in advance. Yes, I have a wonderful boyfriend. Are we engaged? No. Will we be? Probably. And soon. In fact, he's already spoken to my mother about it. Though I don't know how serious she's taking the whole thing. But, it has been talked about. Since I'm graduating in December (yes, it's official, thank God) he will be flying down hopefully around the 10th and staying for a little over a week since graduation is on the 15th. (Yes, we plan in advance. There's nothing wrong with that.) He's asked me how I would feel if he proposed during this time (specifically after graduation). I'm ecstatic actually. I WANT to be engaged. I WANT to be engaged to him. I've never been with anybody before who's cared so much about what I think and say and do. Nobody's ever paid this much attentio to me. He calls me so much I dont have time to miss him, and I love it. No guy has ever cared so much or loved me the way he does. I couldn't imagine being with anybody else ever. This is it. He is it. "The one". It feels so weird to say that because I never thought I'd be at that point in my life. But here it is, and way sooner than I imagined it really. I'm 21. And if he proposes in December, I'll be 22. That's a good age, right? Not too old, not too young. I feel it's right. Everything feels so.....perfect. Ugh, I hate sounding like one of the sappy girly girls, but that's how I feel. I want everything life has to offer and I want it with him. A house, children, all the gushy stuff. He is my future, there is no alternative. I'm such a sap. So yes, I've started planning my wedding. I've thought about the cake; actually everything I'm about to talk about he and I have both discussed together so this isn't just ME hoping & wishing. We've decided on no chocolate cake because some people don't like chocolate (not to mention his brother is allergic). Hmmm, what else. We don't have details..haha nothing like that. I have no idea what kind of dress I want or bridesmaids dresses, but I HAVE thought about it and looked around and shared my opinions with him. We were thinking 4 bridesmaids and groomsmen, but I think that may be too few :(. However; Jeremy doesn't really have more than 4 people he could use as groomsmen (it's kind of sad really but he's never really had that many friends due to his slight disability). So yeah. Is this real? I feel like I'm in a dream. But I want it. And I want it all. Am I a loser? Anyway, as for the reception, that is where we have differing opinions. Jeremy, as a non-drinker, doesn't want to have alcohol available at the reception. I do. Not just because I like to drink, but because I know my friends and family wouldn't mind a glass or two of champagne either. And quite honestly the entire affair is probably going to be so insane I'm going to need a little sip too. We are both worried about people getting too drunk and ruining "our" day. Both of our fathers drink. And when they drink excessively, they are not fun. Just another reason to not have lots of alcohol readily available. This makes sense yes? So how do we compromise? Ugh! Lastly, if we do become engaged and get married, we have agreed that we would get married down here in North Carolina because I have more friends & family than he does and it would be way too expensive to fly my family up there (plus my dad refuses to fly anywhere!). SO! I know this is all way in advance, but I really needed to put it down somewhere and this seemed good. But if we ever do get married, it will be here and everyone can come! Yay! I should stop now before ya'll start thinking I'm absolutely insane (Caitlin I can read your mind but PLEASE trust me on this ok?).
I'll stop rambling now about the wedding that hasn't happened.
Its 6 am. What to do?
Hmmmmm. I bet it's really beautiful down at the beach but I really don't wanna drive down there...I wish our gym was open this early so I could go. And nobody would be there either, so it'd be great. I hate going when there are lots of people. Maybe I'll figure something out. Anyway, leave me some love..nobody does anymore! :(
Well, I've started a list of 50 books I want to read before the end of the year. I actually started the list a while back (while school was still going) but haven't had time to really read or do anything with the list until now, because school is out. I have about 31 books on the list so far that I want to read. And I've read 7. But those 7 have been within the past month and a half. Crazy. I need to add another 19 books to the list. Hmmm, I'll take suggestions too!
Next: Ok, I've become one of those girls. One of the girls who's started planning her wedding in advance. Yes, I have a wonderful boyfriend. Are we engaged? No. Will we be? Probably. And soon. In fact, he's already spoken to my mother about it. Though I don't know how serious she's taking the whole thing. But, it has been talked about. Since I'm graduating in December (yes, it's official, thank God) he will be flying down hopefully around the 10th and staying for a little over a week since graduation is on the 15th. (Yes, we plan in advance. There's nothing wrong with that.) He's asked me how I would feel if he proposed during this time (specifically after graduation). I'm ecstatic actually. I WANT to be engaged. I WANT to be engaged to him. I've never been with anybody before who's cared so much about what I think and say and do. Nobody's ever paid this much attentio to me. He calls me so much I dont have time to miss him, and I love it. No guy has ever cared so much or loved me the way he does. I couldn't imagine being with anybody else ever. This is it. He is it. "The one". It feels so weird to say that because I never thought I'd be at that point in my life. But here it is, and way sooner than I imagined it really. I'm 21. And if he proposes in December, I'll be 22. That's a good age, right? Not too old, not too young. I feel it's right. Everything feels so.....perfect. Ugh, I hate sounding like one of the sappy girly girls, but that's how I feel. I want everything life has to offer and I want it with him. A house, children, all the gushy stuff. He is my future, there is no alternative. I'm such a sap. So yes, I've started planning my wedding. I've thought about the cake; actually everything I'm about to talk about he and I have both discussed together so this isn't just ME hoping & wishing. We've decided on no chocolate cake because some people don't like chocolate (not to mention his brother is allergic). Hmmm, what else. We don't have details..haha nothing like that. I have no idea what kind of dress I want or bridesmaids dresses, but I HAVE thought about it and looked around and shared my opinions with him. We were thinking 4 bridesmaids and groomsmen, but I think that may be too few :(. However; Jeremy doesn't really have more than 4 people he could use as groomsmen (it's kind of sad really but he's never really had that many friends due to his slight disability). So yeah. Is this real? I feel like I'm in a dream. But I want it. And I want it all. Am I a loser? Anyway, as for the reception, that is where we have differing opinions. Jeremy, as a non-drinker, doesn't want to have alcohol available at the reception. I do. Not just because I like to drink, but because I know my friends and family wouldn't mind a glass or two of champagne either. And quite honestly the entire affair is probably going to be so insane I'm going to need a little sip too. We are both worried about people getting too drunk and ruining "our" day. Both of our fathers drink. And when they drink excessively, they are not fun. Just another reason to not have lots of alcohol readily available. This makes sense yes? So how do we compromise? Ugh! Lastly, if we do become engaged and get married, we have agreed that we would get married down here in North Carolina because I have more friends & family than he does and it would be way too expensive to fly my family up there (plus my dad refuses to fly anywhere!). SO! I know this is all way in advance, but I really needed to put it down somewhere and this seemed good. But if we ever do get married, it will be here and everyone can come! Yay! I should stop now before ya'll start thinking I'm absolutely insane (Caitlin I can read your mind but PLEASE trust me on this ok?).
I'll stop rambling now about the wedding that hasn't happened.
Its 6 am. What to do?
Hmmmmm. I bet it's really beautiful down at the beach but I really don't wanna drive down there...I wish our gym was open this early so I could go. And nobody would be there either, so it'd be great. I hate going when there are lots of people. Maybe I'll figure something out. Anyway, leave me some love..nobody does anymore! :(