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[seadeckgo]

Thanks so much to everyone who has written so far, your support means so much to me. I feel so empty right now... and every time I hear the YIM "ding" that I've got a new message, I come running to see if it is one of you. So thank you

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[seadeckgo]

I'm sorry that you can't go too, it's going to be so different without you. I don't feel like I'm ever going to be ready in time, but literally EVERYONE thinks I should still go, so I guess I will. One of the hardest things is going to be leaving my dogs for a week. I know they will be fine and everything, but I'm going to miss them so much. I get a lot of comfort from them, you know? Thank goodness I'll have most of my friends, even though I can't have all of them (you, I mean). It's going to be hard telling people about it. It's like the stray cat I took in - I put an ad in the paper to find him a home and got some calls. I called the first person back and told him I was in MN with my sick horse but I'd call him back as soon as I got back to SF and he could come see the cat. When he came to get the cat today he of course asked about my horse and I had to tell him that he died. That sucked. So, it's going to be hard telling people but I'll find a way to get by, just got to keep putting one foot in front of the other. And I am eating, even if it's only a little I AM eating something healthy at least once a day. Don't want to make myself feel any worse, you know.

[invader_zins]

Glad you are eating, even if it's just a little.

And remember, you don't have to tell people at BF if you don't want to - there's nothing wrong with keeping to yourself a bit, no rule saying you've got to be the social queen of BF. It's your vacation - if you just want to relax by the pool by yourself, that is totally understandable. IMO, it's the change of scenery, the break from your everyday routine that is the important part of any vacation... BF included... especially having just been through what you've just been through. Gods know I could've used the break myself - even before I found myself in the back of an ambulance.

If my neurologist doesn't take flying away from me too, maybe we can all get together near the holidays if you and Mark go visit his folks. Not quite the same, but sooner than next summer at least.