i fucked up..
ok so let me share and finish a little bit of that last post...
david...great guy...nice guy..and i pretty much fucked up my chance of ever being with him. pretty much fucked it up. why??? because im a silly wench.
of course you know he didnt really call me the three weeks after i saw him at my house..and on new years i didnt even get a question from him as to what i was doing..so knowing that i thought he wasnt interested...
well what do i do being the fracker that i am....i frack another guy.
honestly, if a guy really is into you and wants you to be with him wouldn't he want to be with you on new years?
he knew i would probably go to the rave with loraa, but still.
anyways , now im pretty much torturing myself because i realize i just showed a huge flaw in character...one that i certainly won't claim to be one of mine. i totally would never cheat on anyone.....if we were official.
i need to change something.
i need to control myself and the whole fracking guys situation.
i dont want to hurt anyone, and most importantly i don't want to hurt myself.
i really really still like david. THIS SUCKS!
I FUCKED UP.
if anyone knows anything i could say or who would like to give me some guidance..i would greatly appreciate it...seeing as those of you who have lj are close to me..or have been at one point.
david...great guy...nice guy..and i pretty much fucked up my chance of ever being with him. pretty much fucked it up. why??? because im a silly wench.
of course you know he didnt really call me the three weeks after i saw him at my house..and on new years i didnt even get a question from him as to what i was doing..so knowing that i thought he wasnt interested...
well what do i do being the fracker that i am....i frack another guy.
honestly, if a guy really is into you and wants you to be with him wouldn't he want to be with you on new years?
he knew i would probably go to the rave with loraa, but still.
anyways , now im pretty much torturing myself because i realize i just showed a huge flaw in character...one that i certainly won't claim to be one of mine. i totally would never cheat on anyone.....if we were official.
i need to change something.
i need to control myself and the whole fracking guys situation.
i dont want to hurt anyone, and most importantly i don't want to hurt myself.
i really really still like david. THIS SUCKS!
I FUCKED UP.
if anyone knows anything i could say or who would like to give me some guidance..i would greatly appreciate it...seeing as those of you who have lj are close to me..or have been at one point.