(no subject)
I got it all wrong. I... I got it all wrong.
I clicked on the picture, on the picutre in the messenger and it showed the history of the messages you post in the messenger, you know, the one line post you make and... god, I got to read them all, since beginning of february about him moving "We're moving into our new house!" and and then this counting "7 weeks! so happy! 8 and 9 and 10 and... not two days ago 15 weeks and I thought it was I thought it wa that he was counting back to coming but it's not. it's a count down to a pregnancy it's... god... and there's the picture of him and this blonde woman thing and...
he...
ohgod
god, i've been such an idiot so stupid so fucking stupid my god what the fuck was i thinking you know what the fuck was i... it makes no sense but it has to be true right because when you eliminate the impossible whatever remians however imporbabble must be the truth right so of course. he got someone pregnant and they've moved into this house (WITH WHAT FUCKING MONEY YOU MOTHER FUCKER YOU SAID YOU WERE BARELY SCRAPING BY YOU ASSHOLE!) AND HE'S SO HAPPY AND OHMYGOD WHWAT THE FUCK HOW THE FUCK.
I've been such an idiot such a fucking idiot ohmygod can someone please shoot me, please, because i can't beleive a little over a month ago i made a fool of myself and wrote him and he wrote back and we said that of course we can try but it woldn't take us anywhere because we're still where we were six months before, in the same place but of couse he said HE WAS HAVING A BABY AND OHMYGOD WHAT THE FUCK.
I can tell myself that it's not his, that he's just happy for a friend but mygod really? not even I am in that much denial he's moved in with her for fucks sake of course they are together of course he's having a baby he's doing the countdown himself my god please, please, kill me. what the fuck. how the fuck did this turned out to be my life? i don't fucking get it what the fuck happened.
ohmygod. i just. i was dealing with the not being together, yes, six months after and I'm dealing, bite me, but this is something else together. my god. THE MOTHER FUCKER. THE FUCKING ASSHLE. WHAT THE FUCK. HOW THE FUCK COUDL I HAVE BELIEVED HIM OF COURSE HE WAS LYING HE WAS ALWAYS LYING ALL HE DID WAS LIE AND LIE AND LIE AND I BOUGHT EACH AND EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THOSE LIES AND WHAT THE FUCK.
well at lesat this helps, right? nothing to help you out get over it as the fucker being a dirty lying asshole, huh?
okay. so, day one, right? day one, and it just happens to be my newphew's birthday so good for that. easy to remember. day one, people.
day one.
I clicked on the picture, on the picutre in the messenger and it showed the history of the messages you post in the messenger, you know, the one line post you make and... god, I got to read them all, since beginning of february about him moving "We're moving into our new house!" and and then this counting "7 weeks! so happy! 8 and 9 and 10 and... not two days ago 15 weeks and I thought it was I thought it wa that he was counting back to coming but it's not. it's a count down to a pregnancy it's... god... and there's the picture of him and this blonde woman thing and...
he...
ohgod
god, i've been such an idiot so stupid so fucking stupid my god what the fuck was i thinking you know what the fuck was i... it makes no sense but it has to be true right because when you eliminate the impossible whatever remians however imporbabble must be the truth right so of course. he got someone pregnant and they've moved into this house (WITH WHAT FUCKING MONEY YOU MOTHER FUCKER YOU SAID YOU WERE BARELY SCRAPING BY YOU ASSHOLE!) AND HE'S SO HAPPY AND OHMYGOD WHWAT THE FUCK HOW THE FUCK.
I've been such an idiot such a fucking idiot ohmygod can someone please shoot me, please, because i can't beleive a little over a month ago i made a fool of myself and wrote him and he wrote back and we said that of course we can try but it woldn't take us anywhere because we're still where we were six months before, in the same place but of couse he said HE WAS HAVING A BABY AND OHMYGOD WHAT THE FUCK.
I can tell myself that it's not his, that he's just happy for a friend but mygod really? not even I am in that much denial he's moved in with her for fucks sake of course they are together of course he's having a baby he's doing the countdown himself my god please, please, kill me. what the fuck. how the fuck did this turned out to be my life? i don't fucking get it what the fuck happened.
ohmygod. i just. i was dealing with the not being together, yes, six months after and I'm dealing, bite me, but this is something else together. my god. THE MOTHER FUCKER. THE FUCKING ASSHLE. WHAT THE FUCK. HOW THE FUCK COUDL I HAVE BELIEVED HIM OF COURSE HE WAS LYING HE WAS ALWAYS LYING ALL HE DID WAS LIE AND LIE AND LIE AND I BOUGHT EACH AND EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THOSE LIES AND WHAT THE FUCK.
well at lesat this helps, right? nothing to help you out get over it as the fucker being a dirty lying asshole, huh?
okay. so, day one, right? day one, and it just happens to be my newphew's birthday so good for that. easy to remember. day one, people.
day one.