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It's... weird, to say the least.
I still have this other hotmail account, the one that I supposedly made just to the asshat and I could email, where I still have him a "friend", so I opened that one in the messenger today. There was an update from him "just 11 more weeks!" made about ten days ago, so I guess he's coming back "for his vacations" as it were. Sometime at the end of July and beginning of August, when college lets out. And it's also his sister's birthday, so they'll probably go somewhere for it, knowing them.
There was also a new picture, uploaded don't know how long ago. He's sitting besides this blonde woman, girl, thing. He's smiling and so is the girl.
So he's seeing someone. He was probably seeing someone way before we broke up. No surprise there. None whatsoever. The funny thing is, yes, it hurts a bit, but man, it doesn't hurt because of her. It's never been about being faithful or not, about having someone on the side or not. We were miles apart, of course he had someone on the side, fuck, so did I, in a way. It still hurts a bit, but because that still means he choose another country over me, not because of some piece of ass. That's it for me, or at least that's the way I've always seen it. Maybe it helps, that that's the way I've always seen it. Maybe, if I had seen it differently, if I had known it wasn't a country that had the upper hand over me, but another person, then maybe it would have been different, worse, who knows really.
I just... I wanted to have it out here, because that's the only way to keep track of things, for me.
But still, all things considered, man, it doesn't hurt as one would have thought. It's barely, a what, a bump on the toe, in a way. It's there, yes, but man, time does help and heal all wounds and all that crap. Thank God!
I still have this other hotmail account, the one that I supposedly made just to the asshat and I could email, where I still have him a "friend", so I opened that one in the messenger today. There was an update from him "just 11 more weeks!" made about ten days ago, so I guess he's coming back "for his vacations" as it were. Sometime at the end of July and beginning of August, when college lets out. And it's also his sister's birthday, so they'll probably go somewhere for it, knowing them.
There was also a new picture, uploaded don't know how long ago. He's sitting besides this blonde woman, girl, thing. He's smiling and so is the girl.
So he's seeing someone. He was probably seeing someone way before we broke up. No surprise there. None whatsoever. The funny thing is, yes, it hurts a bit, but man, it doesn't hurt because of her. It's never been about being faithful or not, about having someone on the side or not. We were miles apart, of course he had someone on the side, fuck, so did I, in a way. It still hurts a bit, but because that still means he choose another country over me, not because of some piece of ass. That's it for me, or at least that's the way I've always seen it. Maybe it helps, that that's the way I've always seen it. Maybe, if I had seen it differently, if I had known it wasn't a country that had the upper hand over me, but another person, then maybe it would have been different, worse, who knows really.
I just... I wanted to have it out here, because that's the only way to keep track of things, for me.
But still, all things considered, man, it doesn't hurt as one would have thought. It's barely, a what, a bump on the toe, in a way. It's there, yes, but man, time does help and heal all wounds and all that crap. Thank God!