i am a freaking crazy person.
SO... i am nuts. NUTTTSS. heres why.
first off...
this.. this is the sole reason why i am a crazed nutso person right now. i literally cannot sleep because i got this tiny little notion in my head that has exploded into full on obsessivness.
it all started with an innocent flip through of the bluegrass horseman. right? so i turn the page and a name jumps out at me and then the picture and then the words "now offered for your consideration". mmmmmmmmkaaayyyy.
see, this is rico. MY RICO. callaway's wish me luck. we had him at our barn 3-4 years ago. williamsons owned him. i was in love with him. IN. LOVE. like, you don't understand. brian gaited him & i got to ride him right after. more in love. i mean seriously. had my senior pictures taken at the barn the year i graduated w/ hustler, polo.. aaand guess who else. yep thats right.. rico. i wanted that horse more than anything. told myself one day i would get him. little did i know, mike wanted to sell him & at springfield that year he did just that. to phil price. who has him now. AND IS SELLING HIMMMMMMMMM. well, some family has him now, an ammy has been showing him but yeah. hes still with phil. andandand hes for sale. i was heartbroken when he sold, phil took him home from there. and i CRIED. and made somebody take pictures of me and him. i wish i could find them. but anyways. it hurt, and eventually it got better. got to go visit him when brian and mike went to l'ambiance awhile after that. since then ive seen him randomly at shows. and hes even bigger and prettier.
BUT anyways. so i sat there staring at the ad for awhile. wheels turning. and i just thought.. what if. what IF. it could happen. just maybe. i dont remember exactly what mike sold him for, but at the time for him it was kind of a rediculous price.. seeing as springfield was his very first show ever. since then hes won alot and done really well. won the open 5-gaited & was reserve in the championship at heartland, which is what the ad was for. so taking that into consideration and the fact that its phil price.... i have a feeling hes going to be way way way unaffordable like.. dream on retard. but it says priced for immediate sale, and. sure that pretty much doesnt mean a damn thing but i can always hope.
so my plan goes like this. i was going to call phil up tomorrow, see about a price and possibly setting up a time to go out to l'ambiance and maybe ride him. but then i thought well.. i am going to want brian to go with me. then i thought.. why dont i just make brian call phil FOR me, since obviously they have a much better business relationship than phil and i do. ha really. so. and then the issue with money. obviously i will have to have a limit. ill know when i hear the price. but.. if i think it might be possible.. next step is to sit mike down and have a little chat. because mike is loaded. he owns the barn and has 20973096 horses for beavis to show. he used to own rico. hes letting me have my stall for free for the mare. maybe hed like to go into a partnership with me. halfsies. maybe hell just buy rico and i will pay him back. i will work every spare moment of my life at the barn. anything i can do to make this work.
see, i HAVE to have THIS HORSE. we have a history. ive been dying for another show horse. this is rico. he is big. he is pretty. he is 5 gaited. hes for sale.
however. i am broke. im in debt. i have one horse to many as it is. i work a full time job. im doing school. sigh.
anyway. maybe i will shake myself out of it.. but. i think im going to try. who knows. the price could be rediculous and that could be that. but i will never forgive myself if i dont try. this is like one of those things where its just meant to be. i have that gut feeling. so. yep. going for it. wish me luuuccck.