(no subject)
Apparently I'm selling my wedding set.
I heard a radio advertisement the other day talking about the price of gold and the light bulb went off! I couldn't believe it never occurred to me to sell my old gold and diamond jewelry, being that now is when we desperately need all the funds we can we can get our paws on. [Student loan collectors called 6 times today alone!]
Anyway, Joe and I had a conversation about sentimentality that eventually led to the discussion about selling my wedding rings. See, he lost his a couple of years ago when he took it off at the gym. Fine. Understandable accident. It didn't bother me.
Sort of.
Joe is not a very sentimental person, which is fine; I'm not an overly sentimental person either, but I do cherish a few things that hold very special memories of us. Now the wedding rings in particular aren't one of them, but you see, over the years, Joe has kind of cheapened a lot of that stuff and made me feel pretty silly for holding onto them. For example, when we were still just kids [15 and 16] he wrote a poem for me that I loved. [Obviously. ^_^] He hates the thing now, because he thinks it's a terrible poem. I understand that because he's a writer he holds his writing to a higher standard now than he did then due to his knowledge and experience. I didn't care though!
It's stuff like that that gets me.
*sighs*
The reason the wedding ring thing kind of bothered me is not that "well, it's his wedding ring!", it's because that was one of the only symbols I really have of us. He doesn't really allow me very many because it just seems like if something wasn't special to him, why should I hold onto it? I don't want to be in denial about our relationship. It just seems that if he has no sentiment about anything, and won't say I love you [granted I do feel like he loves me, he just refuses to say it, which in turns makes me afraid to say it to him...] it's like, "Well fuck dude, what can I hold onto?"
So anyway, the wedding ring really seems like a joke to wear if it doesn't have a mate so maybe I can put an end to all this by paying off a credit card or something.
FIN