Rant
Today was interesting. I delivered papers with Gloria, Linda and James. We got about halfway through James' route when he came to help us.
Slept until 3, that was nice. Then talked to Tami and Keli and threw a load of laundry in, brought my suitcase downstairs and stuff. Then I went out to dinner with James and Gloria, that was good as well. We went to see his grandpa. That sucked for me, because I still have crappy hospital memories, not as bad as some, but I have my fair share. He looked okay, just shaking a little. James told him that if he gets better I'll show him my tits *sigh* some things never change. Then James and I addressed payment envelopes for his route and watched Medium and a little Jay Leno. Talked to Kevin in there somewhere too.
So why is my post entitled "Rant", you might wonder. So far this post has been a dull, nondescript entry about my day. I am thoroughly disappointed in some of the people that I know. They have a flagrant disregard for anything that comes close to...shit I don’t know. Friendship? It angers me that this upsets me so much. I should probably tell these people that they are upsetting me, but I feel like I can't. 1) I don't think that they'll listen. I really don't. 2) I'm a pussy. Yes, we all know this, but I really don't like confrontation too much. I try to brush things off like everything is fine when it truly isn't. Like, oh shit, everything isn't rosy and full of sunbeams? Well....hell fuzzy I would have never guessed. And I guess that is what gets me trampled on. I never tell people why they piss me the hell off. And thus, it happens over and over again. Maybe I should just stop doing favors for people. Maybe that will stop the disappointment I feel when things don't seem equal. I hate feeling like I'm the last of people's priorities, while they are supposed to be the first of mine.
Ugh, I just gave myself a headache.
Peace
Slept until 3, that was nice. Then talked to Tami and Keli and threw a load of laundry in, brought my suitcase downstairs and stuff. Then I went out to dinner with James and Gloria, that was good as well. We went to see his grandpa. That sucked for me, because I still have crappy hospital memories, not as bad as some, but I have my fair share. He looked okay, just shaking a little. James told him that if he gets better I'll show him my tits *sigh* some things never change. Then James and I addressed payment envelopes for his route and watched Medium and a little Jay Leno. Talked to Kevin in there somewhere too.
So why is my post entitled "Rant", you might wonder. So far this post has been a dull, nondescript entry about my day. I am thoroughly disappointed in some of the people that I know. They have a flagrant disregard for anything that comes close to...shit I don’t know. Friendship? It angers me that this upsets me so much. I should probably tell these people that they are upsetting me, but I feel like I can't. 1) I don't think that they'll listen. I really don't. 2) I'm a pussy. Yes, we all know this, but I really don't like confrontation too much. I try to brush things off like everything is fine when it truly isn't. Like, oh shit, everything isn't rosy and full of sunbeams? Well....hell fuzzy I would have never guessed. And I guess that is what gets me trampled on. I never tell people why they piss me the hell off. And thus, it happens over and over again. Maybe I should just stop doing favors for people. Maybe that will stop the disappointment I feel when things don't seem equal. I hate feeling like I'm the last of people's priorities, while they are supposed to be the first of mine.
Ugh, I just gave myself a headache.
Peace