Rough night...
I stayed up until 2 am comforting Chris because Mary left him. It really isn't my place to be involved, so I tried to stay as friendly and helpful as possible.
Most people wouldn't have done it, but that kid's got my heart... I could be a bitch and laugh in his face if I wanted to, but inside I know that I'd feel sorry for him. Not because I'm sorry for the position he's in, but sorry because even though I hate seeing him with someone else, I just like seeing him happy.
He went to pick up his car early this morning. I told him I'd take a day off work if he just needed somewhere to go for a few hours.....well, it looks like that's today. He'll call me when he wakes up, and then I'll know for sure. But since I just took this whole day off (which doesn't look good, I'd gonna be pretty mad if he doesn't show.
That last line was selfish, I know.
So here goes the first day I've spent alone with him in months... It wont be anything sexual...I still love him, but I'm not stupid. I wouldn't fall for that one. And besides, if he loves Mary like he says he does, it wouldn't cross his mind for a second. We're just gonna chill out a bit. Hell, I'll smoke with him if that's what he wants. Anything to break down this wall we've held against each other...
Most people wouldn't have done it, but that kid's got my heart... I could be a bitch and laugh in his face if I wanted to, but inside I know that I'd feel sorry for him. Not because I'm sorry for the position he's in, but sorry because even though I hate seeing him with someone else, I just like seeing him happy.
He went to pick up his car early this morning. I told him I'd take a day off work if he just needed somewhere to go for a few hours.....well, it looks like that's today. He'll call me when he wakes up, and then I'll know for sure. But since I just took this whole day off (which doesn't look good, I'd gonna be pretty mad if he doesn't show.
That last line was selfish, I know.
So here goes the first day I've spent alone with him in months... It wont be anything sexual...I still love him, but I'm not stupid. I wouldn't fall for that one. And besides, if he loves Mary like he says he does, it wouldn't cross his mind for a second. We're just gonna chill out a bit. Hell, I'll smoke with him if that's what he wants. Anything to break down this wall we've held against each other...