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i'm pretty sure the phone interview with Schwab went well. i actually have an in person interview in a week (Thursday the 13th) with two of the hiring managers. According to the hiring coordinator (the woman i spoke with on the phone) if they like me, then i just fill out paperwork and they do a background check, and if all that goes through without a hitch, i get offered the job. this is good because surgery means i won't be doing any interviews for at least a week, maybe two.
i think i am being avoided, and i feel like i'm being avoided, and it really sucks and i would like to know why. to say you'll hang out one night, and then that night say "i'll call you tomorrow" and then not call tomorrow... that sucks and screams avoidance. i feel really shitty as a result, because i feel like i must have done something (wrong, i guess) for this to happen, but i don't know what it is. unless it's not my fault and its someone else's fault, which seems like it could be a very real possibility...
i need to keep my mind off it because it makes me really sad because we were hanging out and being friends, and now i feel like she doesn't want to be my friend anymore or something, so... i dunno. i kind of want to say "fuck this" and be done with it, but i don't really feel angry, just sad...
ANYWAY... i got this new video game Army of Two. i dig it a lot, but i wish i had someone to play with, instead of the computer AI which isn't great (though it isn't as bad as i expected, which almost makes it worse when it does really stupid shit)
i think this weekend i might go out and get really fucking shitfaced... i just need to get some sprite and some cola, and i should be good to go... and get really fucked up.
i'm tired, i have to go to class tomorrow, so i'd better go to bed... though i might grab a bite to eat first, i am pretty hungry.
night
i think i am being avoided, and i feel like i'm being avoided, and it really sucks and i would like to know why. to say you'll hang out one night, and then that night say "i'll call you tomorrow" and then not call tomorrow... that sucks and screams avoidance. i feel really shitty as a result, because i feel like i must have done something (wrong, i guess) for this to happen, but i don't know what it is. unless it's not my fault and its someone else's fault, which seems like it could be a very real possibility...
i need to keep my mind off it because it makes me really sad because we were hanging out and being friends, and now i feel like she doesn't want to be my friend anymore or something, so... i dunno. i kind of want to say "fuck this" and be done with it, but i don't really feel angry, just sad...
ANYWAY... i got this new video game Army of Two. i dig it a lot, but i wish i had someone to play with, instead of the computer AI which isn't great (though it isn't as bad as i expected, which almost makes it worse when it does really stupid shit)
i think this weekend i might go out and get really fucking shitfaced... i just need to get some sprite and some cola, and i should be good to go... and get really fucked up.
i'm tired, i have to go to class tomorrow, so i'd better go to bed... though i might grab a bite to eat first, i am pretty hungry.
night