May 21, 2007 23:20
I have def been out of the romance scene for quite some time. Whatever happened this past year doesn't even count because it meant nothing. I'm finally realizing he was just not worth my time and he will no longer have any control of how I act at school or at home.
I'd given up on looking for anything, and not that I am necessarily looking now. Whatever happens, happens.
But I so want to find that head over heels love. I want to be with someone who never lets me stop smiling. I want simple dates to be the most romantic times of my life. I want something classic and simple and beautiful. I have time, but somewhere out there is my perfect man. I cannot wait to experience that ultimate and immediate passion. Love is so wonderful to find.
Often I tell myself not to put my heart on the line when I like someone. Don't tell them how you feel, just play the game. Guys only want hook ups anyway, say what you're expected to say not whatever your heart is screaming. Something I learned tonight is that without taking chances or risks you lose valuable moments. Ok, so maybe, it won't work out. Maybe he's not The One. But by taking a chance on love and admitting your emotions you experience those moments. Those detailed moments that are so vividly engraved in your memory. They can be recalled at any times, rewound and slowed down. Those moments that make you smile wherever you are when you think back. That's the reward for taking chances and without those we may never be smiling.
The Bachelor was good tonight. I can't believe I got into this show. I think Andy picked the right girl and all of the giddy, lovestruck, romantic moments made me smile. I smiled about a relationship I don't even know. How great is that? Yeah, I thought so too. Goodnight. <3