Intermission
I was wondering why I hadn't received any comments in such a long time... then I realized I hadn't posted anything. lol
So, I'm back at school. Spring break is over and classes start up again tomorrow. There's a lot to be done and a lot to focus in on. I had a nice long drive today and now I have the car here, just a little more freedom. The past couple of months have been absolutely horrible. I hate to admit it, but it's true. I had a lot of alone time recently which I needed. I want improvements to happen but I've been pushing away all of the help. I want to prove to myself that I can handle anything that comes my way, I want to fix everything by myself. I want to be independent because I don't trust anyone but myself anyway. I think I came back to school with an improved attitude. I want to meet new people, I want to utilize my time more efficently and I want to be successful. I'm determined to be happy. There's a few people here who are not making this easy. But I am going to try not to let them get to me. I don't want to be a bitch but I think I'm ready to speak up for myself. If someone pisses me off, it's time for me to tell them. I'm not going to spend my time wishing for things that I've already lost. I am so done with the drama and the ridiculous bullshit.
I've been dwelling on the past, because I miss those people. But, if this is how they choose to be, fine, I certainly don't need that in my life. There are better people out there that I've shut out. I'm ready to meet them. I hope I have the courage to take some chances. I'm learning that I can't be perfect. I'm learning that I need to work harder. I'm learning that I will always make stupid mistakes and regret certain decisions. I'm starting to learn that I'm not alone.
This is now my era of change. This chapter of my life is all about self renewal. It may not be interesting. It may not be romantic. It may not be glorifying. And it probably won't be a party. But, it is a necessary transition. Look forward to next year, or my next chapter, it's going to be a best seller.
So, I'm back at school. Spring break is over and classes start up again tomorrow. There's a lot to be done and a lot to focus in on. I had a nice long drive today and now I have the car here, just a little more freedom. The past couple of months have been absolutely horrible. I hate to admit it, but it's true. I had a lot of alone time recently which I needed. I want improvements to happen but I've been pushing away all of the help. I want to prove to myself that I can handle anything that comes my way, I want to fix everything by myself. I want to be independent because I don't trust anyone but myself anyway. I think I came back to school with an improved attitude. I want to meet new people, I want to utilize my time more efficently and I want to be successful. I'm determined to be happy. There's a few people here who are not making this easy. But I am going to try not to let them get to me. I don't want to be a bitch but I think I'm ready to speak up for myself. If someone pisses me off, it's time for me to tell them. I'm not going to spend my time wishing for things that I've already lost. I am so done with the drama and the ridiculous bullshit.
I've been dwelling on the past, because I miss those people. But, if this is how they choose to be, fine, I certainly don't need that in my life. There are better people out there that I've shut out. I'm ready to meet them. I hope I have the courage to take some chances. I'm learning that I can't be perfect. I'm learning that I need to work harder. I'm learning that I will always make stupid mistakes and regret certain decisions. I'm starting to learn that I'm not alone.
This is now my era of change. This chapter of my life is all about self renewal. It may not be interesting. It may not be romantic. It may not be glorifying. And it probably won't be a party. But, it is a necessary transition. Look forward to next year, or my next chapter, it's going to be a best seller.