I'm desperate for you...
...I would be so lost right now if it were not for God.
I depend so much on Him, blindly trusting that I will be taken care of, that I suppose it would seem quite foolish to some how trusting I have become.
I've never felt so at ease, happy, liberated, positive, productive...and I feel like I'm making a difference in the lives of the people around me because of this new~found happiness and freedom.
I was very recently confronted by someone from my past that I, for the longest time, had no intention of ever speaking to again. (Not the best or most Christian~like way to approach an obstacle in life...but, nonetheless...) After almost 5 years, I'm finally able to talk to this person in a civil, mature, grounded, and spiritually~centered manner. Needless to say, I never thought, in a million years, that I would be able to counsel someone on matters dealing with their relationship with God and others. But I can't help when God gives me the right words to say at the right time. To ignore the inclination to speak about God or for God's sake on matters of the heart and soul is to basically tell God, "No." (Never a good idea.)
This reunion seems to have sparked a few potentially damaging flames in the lives of (now) two good friends of mine ~ though neither of them places blame on me, I still feel somewhat responsible for being the flint for the spark...it's a very old flame. I don't like to assume, but I don't believe in chance or even fate for that matter, so I know God is working in the lives of these two individuals a lot right now ~ especially spiritually ~ there is a battle going on that is clashing without reconciliation or much communication. Pray for them...
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These moments...the ones where all I desire is to help those around me to find peace and happiness with God...are when I feel so very weak ~ because I want to do it for them and can only let God use me however much He needs to and then sit back and be patient, and let Him do His work. I realize this...
...I still long to help those dear to me who struggle, especially at times in their lives that I have recently gone through or feel like I have some experience with ~ even simple, day to day tasks ~ I want to ease their stress and worry and pain because I wish that someone had been there to help me and remind me of God's presence. The feelings I have for these few individuals that I hold closest to my heart can only be expressed as being the very purest of love:
Brutally honest.
Understanding.
Unconditional.
Passionate.
Forgiving.
Agape.
...And this love always seems to be reciprocated when I, myself, am in need...it's absolutely beautiful, and as God intended. I know I can't be strong all of the time; I'm learning to depend on others for growth and reassurance...I've finally placed my trust in the hands of a select few for the first time in years.
God has been and is so good to me.
These people in my life right now ~ they are my blessings; my over~flowing and bountiful blessings.
I am the richest woman I know.
I want more people to be as rich as I...
<3 H.
I depend so much on Him, blindly trusting that I will be taken care of, that I suppose it would seem quite foolish to some how trusting I have become.
I've never felt so at ease, happy, liberated, positive, productive...and I feel like I'm making a difference in the lives of the people around me because of this new~found happiness and freedom.
I was very recently confronted by someone from my past that I, for the longest time, had no intention of ever speaking to again. (Not the best or most Christian~like way to approach an obstacle in life...but, nonetheless...) After almost 5 years, I'm finally able to talk to this person in a civil, mature, grounded, and spiritually~centered manner. Needless to say, I never thought, in a million years, that I would be able to counsel someone on matters dealing with their relationship with God and others. But I can't help when God gives me the right words to say at the right time. To ignore the inclination to speak about God or for God's sake on matters of the heart and soul is to basically tell God, "No." (Never a good idea.)
This reunion seems to have sparked a few potentially damaging flames in the lives of (now) two good friends of mine ~ though neither of them places blame on me, I still feel somewhat responsible for being the flint for the spark...it's a very old flame. I don't like to assume, but I don't believe in chance or even fate for that matter, so I know God is working in the lives of these two individuals a lot right now ~ especially spiritually ~ there is a battle going on that is clashing without reconciliation or much communication. Pray for them...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
These moments...the ones where all I desire is to help those around me to find peace and happiness with God...are when I feel so very weak ~ because I want to do it for them and can only let God use me however much He needs to and then sit back and be patient, and let Him do His work. I realize this...
...I still long to help those dear to me who struggle, especially at times in their lives that I have recently gone through or feel like I have some experience with ~ even simple, day to day tasks ~ I want to ease their stress and worry and pain because I wish that someone had been there to help me and remind me of God's presence. The feelings I have for these few individuals that I hold closest to my heart can only be expressed as being the very purest of love:
Brutally honest.
Understanding.
Unconditional.
Passionate.
Forgiving.
Agape.
...And this love always seems to be reciprocated when I, myself, am in need...it's absolutely beautiful, and as God intended. I know I can't be strong all of the time; I'm learning to depend on others for growth and reassurance...I've finally placed my trust in the hands of a select few for the first time in years.
God has been and is so good to me.
These people in my life right now ~ they are my blessings; my over~flowing and bountiful blessings.
I am the richest woman I know.
I want more people to be as rich as I...
<3 H.