i'm sick. and i'm stuck. the cycles of my life are relentless. here it goes. i fall for him, but he already fell for her, she's stuck on another, and then he falls for me, but i'm still stuck at the beginning. do you see? it is a vicious cycle and i can't get out. this is why it was honorable to marry the first girl who you liked who liked ( Read more... )

This morning the sea was calm but the dog wasn't. i let him get in bed with me to calm him down. i haven't let him in for a long time. i forgot he's a great cuddler. he rested his head on my arm and held my hand with his paw. i don't know how he knew to. dogs are so much smarter than us. they do what they want when they want and never think. ( Read more... )

So i made a blog in a writers community continuing down the winding road of words.....check it out, enter my head....

http://jisthoughts.blogspot.com/

one love.

i just spoke to the last of my house guests and eveyone has left. I would cry if i wasn't so full of happy and hillarious memories from the last two weeks. The people who were here are the best of the best. I had an amazing time, so amazing that it would be impossible to articulate. you know the kind of people that you don't even need to speak ( Read more... )

Without being too too corny....oh fuck it, i am SO EXCITED for the holidays!!! All my friends and friends family is coming and I'll be surrounded by my favorite people! And instead of my paretns listening to the kids who said they didn't care about our Christmas we can just all meet at grandma's, they insisted that we come to their house, however ( Read more... )

I have a secret that i can't tell....everyone will know soon enough. i am the first to know though and couldn't be more pleased with that fact! believe me i am DYING to tell you!!! Hopefully by tonight it'll be common knowledge....and at the latest new years. AHHH!! I'm the worst at keeping secrets but i'm the only one who knows so it'll be ( Read more... )

So this transitional phase that i've been in for the past seven months i've decided isn't transitional at all. its my life, take it or leave it, and i'll take it. the ex factor is getting much better, i know this because yesterday during my random myspace stalking i wanted to laugh at him instead of wanting to cry. i don't know what made me so ( Read more... )

I love sunday's cause i love grey's anatomy, its pretty much the best show ever, but aside from that sundays suck....i am so tired. i didn't even run this morning cause i was way too tired. work sucks. i am too tired to do anything worthwhile. i need a nap. at least one. on a lighter note this weekend was pretty fun, aside from the funeral, ( Read more... )

they say that new life makes losing life easier to understand, but i don't see any new babies among my parents friends, and really the only children around to possibly provide them are my brother, myself, three in cali and one here who is only 16. Maybe cause they're all hippies and didn't get married or have children, i dont know. But the one ( Read more... )

So i am a very happy girl this week. I found out yesterday that my first boyfriend who i thought cheated on me, didn't. This means that all the energy i spent hating him and the girl he "cheated with" was for nothing! Also the trust-no-one attitude that I assumed immediately upon dumping him, was for no reason, AND most interesting of all, the ( Read more... )