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Newt is:
- Visibly shaking
- Going on a “sort of date” on Wednesday
- Realizing that she has trouble saying no when she’s not saying no to everyone, and saying yes when she’s not saying yes to everyone
At this point in my life, I’m realizing that I am exploring all sorts of different things - most notably attachment, boys, relationships, freedom, being single etc. And this is important to realize, because now I can continue with my self growth with out hurting people... I need to make it clear that Newt is not getting deeply attached romantically to anyone right now, so I can feel what I need to feel, do what I need to do, with out worrying about hearts breaking.
I’m shaking inside, too. I’m depressed: could have started crying in Anthro, at work, right now. But I’m thrilled and riding this thrill like a life force.