new years WOO
welp, another year down the drain. I really wished i could have spent my WHOLE year in ny. Unfortunately, i'm here, in hell, awaiting the day when i can go back.
I am also in the same position i was last year at this time with my mother. I don't get how someone who should love me unconditionally, really only loves me CONditionally. She actually told me last month to KILL her if she goes back to her boyfriend (to which she's been going out with for MUCH too long) and i said to myself, really, she's already dead to me. Emotionally, she's the last person i'd ever go to for a problem, and i don't talk to her about ANYTHING anymore except small talk. I think i've grown to loathe her existence except for financial stability. I know this is quite a distressing statement, but when someone doesn't care if you're alive or dead, doesn't care about your feelings, uses you as a doormat for her DRAMATIC daily soap operas, i could really care less about her. I mean, i might as well be charlie brown's teacher, because that's really all she must hear coming out of my mouth. WAWAWAWAWAWWAWAAWWAWAWA.
So the day came when I was supposed to kill her, and i said, "well, i hope you wrote up a good will today" and she nervously laughed and said "i'll get right on it." HA. That was the day i said "if you EVER say ANYTHING to me about that disgusting peutrid human being, I will never speak to you again." So now a few days pass and OF COURSE, she came home crying because he hit on another girl or some stupid lame ass thing, and she has the nerve to go into DAVID'S ROOM and start crying to him about her pathetic life, that SHE HAS CONTROL TO CHANGE!!!!! Holy shit, i need to get out of here. She is totally insane, and THREE YEARS of hearing this crap is MUCH too long.
I hope everyone's christmas and new year rock!!! Have a happy day. :)
I am also in the same position i was last year at this time with my mother. I don't get how someone who should love me unconditionally, really only loves me CONditionally. She actually told me last month to KILL her if she goes back to her boyfriend (to which she's been going out with for MUCH too long) and i said to myself, really, she's already dead to me. Emotionally, she's the last person i'd ever go to for a problem, and i don't talk to her about ANYTHING anymore except small talk. I think i've grown to loathe her existence except for financial stability. I know this is quite a distressing statement, but when someone doesn't care if you're alive or dead, doesn't care about your feelings, uses you as a doormat for her DRAMATIC daily soap operas, i could really care less about her. I mean, i might as well be charlie brown's teacher, because that's really all she must hear coming out of my mouth. WAWAWAWAWAWWAWAAWWAWAWA.
So the day came when I was supposed to kill her, and i said, "well, i hope you wrote up a good will today" and she nervously laughed and said "i'll get right on it." HA. That was the day i said "if you EVER say ANYTHING to me about that disgusting peutrid human being, I will never speak to you again." So now a few days pass and OF COURSE, she came home crying because he hit on another girl or some stupid lame ass thing, and she has the nerve to go into DAVID'S ROOM and start crying to him about her pathetic life, that SHE HAS CONTROL TO CHANGE!!!!! Holy shit, i need to get out of here. She is totally insane, and THREE YEARS of hearing this crap is MUCH too long.
I hope everyone's christmas and new year rock!!! Have a happy day. :)