contemplating honesty....
so who do you turn to when you finally realise you have no one you can trust?
humans are well.... just human. i cant expect to have anyone who fully 100% cares. but it'd be nice....
can i just say right now, this isnt blowing my own trumpet etc. its just me being honest...
i wish there were more people who truelly gave a shit about how i was. when you ask how i am, actually listen to the answer, yeah? dont get me wrong, i dont complain that often (except on here it seems!).
ive been thinking alot about the people in my life, and honestly, i dont think i can name one person that i trust 100%. not even my own mother...how sad is that? although i would be intrigued to find out if anyone has someone they truelly trust 100% someone they can tell anything to and know they wont tell others, someone who wont run away at the sign of trouble, someone who will be there through thick and thin...
i thought i trusted quite a few people once. but now im not so sure. i guess i've become jaded. and been hurt way too many times. im not saying im perfect, or that i havent hurt people accidently before. but i truelly care about each of my friends 100%.
i wish i knew what i do to fuck things up sometimes.... but the latest victim seems to be my life. oooh yeah making a mess of that one!!
but cmon sam. chin up. no one really cares how you are, so just say "im good thanks. how are you?" and actually listen to how they are. actually care. like you always do.
oooh so emo. woot.
maybe a more positive update sometime later... but for now, im outies.
thanks for listening to rambles.
p.s. 29kg
p.p.s. provided i pass, getting p's (drivers licence) on 27th sept at 10:15am. wish me luck
xx
p.p.p.s. how are you really??
p.p.p.p.s. who was the anonymous person who left a comment on my last update? its killin me!!!!
humans are well.... just human. i cant expect to have anyone who fully 100% cares. but it'd be nice....
can i just say right now, this isnt blowing my own trumpet etc. its just me being honest...
i wish there were more people who truelly gave a shit about how i was. when you ask how i am, actually listen to the answer, yeah? dont get me wrong, i dont complain that often (except on here it seems!).
ive been thinking alot about the people in my life, and honestly, i dont think i can name one person that i trust 100%. not even my own mother...how sad is that? although i would be intrigued to find out if anyone has someone they truelly trust 100% someone they can tell anything to and know they wont tell others, someone who wont run away at the sign of trouble, someone who will be there through thick and thin...
i thought i trusted quite a few people once. but now im not so sure. i guess i've become jaded. and been hurt way too many times. im not saying im perfect, or that i havent hurt people accidently before. but i truelly care about each of my friends 100%.
i wish i knew what i do to fuck things up sometimes.... but the latest victim seems to be my life. oooh yeah making a mess of that one!!
but cmon sam. chin up. no one really cares how you are, so just say "im good thanks. how are you?" and actually listen to how they are. actually care. like you always do.
oooh so emo. woot.
maybe a more positive update sometime later... but for now, im outies.
thanks for listening to rambles.
p.s. 29kg
p.p.s. provided i pass, getting p's (drivers licence) on 27th sept at 10:15am. wish me luck
xx
p.p.p.s. how are you really??
p.p.p.p.s. who was the anonymous person who left a comment on my last update? its killin me!!!!