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So I had this dream lastnight, after being out of my mind and watching a zombie movie (my favorite horror movies). I went to bed at 5, then I wake up, at 11, and it's really light and sunny outside. And quiet. I get in my car and go to the store to get some food for breakfast (eggs, we were out) and I see on the way that there are no cars anywhere... so I get to the store, and I see a bloody zombie ambling around in the store, so i take off back to my house, and i see my family car crashed into the garage, with skids everywhere. So then I think, what to do next... and I go to visit this girl... call her jane. Anyway jane and i have been involved for bout 8 mos and so i go to her house, and I see her car out front, so I walk in, and there she is, all zombified and starts walking towards me... I had a gun, and I wanted to put her out of her misery/protect myself, but I couldnt do it... In my dream I started crying, left her alone and just drove, south until I woke up. I can't figure out interpretation of this dream, I have a couple ideas from other people, some say that I can't give jane up, and it just put this into whatever was fresh in my mind e.g. zombie movie. But then I think, why I like zombie movies so much, they really get to me. I think It's because they are never really about being scared of the zombies, because by the time that they take over the city or whatever, you've already lost all hope. Then you're just scared of being alone. I never knew what my biggest fear was, but now im starting to think that my obsession with zombies and long relationships for that matter are a manifestation of my biggest fear - being alone. So many people say that lonliness is their biggest fear, but it took a dream to make me realize how unhappy I would be in this circumstance. Am i going crazy