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here is the truth- my nana is the only one who ever really tried to save me. even my own mother didn't try. my father was very abusive, and my mother just turned away from it. she knew it was happening; she was just too chicken to stand up for me, or to call someone.
i remember one family get-together when my dad was really wasted and yelling at me in front of the whole family for no reason... my nana pulled me aside and told me to come home with her and my papa. i told her i couldn't, because then my father would beat me that much harder when i eventually came home.
my nana tried to save me.
and now she's dying.
and i can't save her.
and it kills me.
it's just a matter of days now, i'm sure. she's not even breathing on her own. it's all machines. there is no point. she's not coming to. she always told us she didn't want to live like this, because it's not really living at all. tonight, they slipped a 'do not resuscitate' bracelet on her. if she passes, the doctors will not bring her back.
'ohhh, waaah, traci! we're sick of hearing about your dying nana. give it up already!'
okay.... uhmm... what else? i miss tigre. randy is going to check up on her tonight. i miss her, miss her, miss her soooo much!
also, i found my future wife. i really, really, really like randy. but i am going to marry this chick, and randy can be the best man or something.
GOD, i hate mtv. but LOOK AT HER! she's gorgeous. and... that accent!
i remember one family get-together when my dad was really wasted and yelling at me in front of the whole family for no reason... my nana pulled me aside and told me to come home with her and my papa. i told her i couldn't, because then my father would beat me that much harder when i eventually came home.
my nana tried to save me.
and now she's dying.
and i can't save her.
and it kills me.
it's just a matter of days now, i'm sure. she's not even breathing on her own. it's all machines. there is no point. she's not coming to. she always told us she didn't want to live like this, because it's not really living at all. tonight, they slipped a 'do not resuscitate' bracelet on her. if she passes, the doctors will not bring her back.
'ohhh, waaah, traci! we're sick of hearing about your dying nana. give it up already!'
okay.... uhmm... what else? i miss tigre. randy is going to check up on her tonight. i miss her, miss her, miss her soooo much!
also, i found my future wife. i really, really, really like randy. but i am going to marry this chick, and randy can be the best man or something.
Click to viewGOD, i hate mtv. but LOOK AT HER! she's gorgeous. and... that accent!