A wierd dream
Last night was insane for my head... which is why I believe that what happened in my dreams reflects my emotions and the way that I constantly feel about what is going on in my life.
In my dream... my front yard had been flooded by the ocean. I had about 8-9 people over. At first, we went to my backyard and found some of the strangest animals i've EVER imagined. Siamese rainbow geckos with detachability.(sp?) Another thing is that wherever there was dry sand/land there were an abundance of LARGE red with white spotted mushrooms. A neighbor of mine had found one the size of his own house and made it into a hot air baloon somehow. My dream was ended by the 8-9 people in my house as well as myself trying to keep sanity. I had noticed that every household object and item whatever it was, was signaling me to kill. It was signaling me to kill everything and anything. My friends (by whom I do not remember who exactly) were all layed out on the floor holding their heads as if they also were hearing and seeing what I was seeing trying not to let whoever were telling me to do horrible things get to them. It was the scariest dream I have had in a long long time. Not scary because of ocean in my yard or even the abundance of mushrooms, but because I myself felt that I had no control and no one around me didn't either. I fear that one day this horrible fantasy could easily become reality.
I am very, very egotistical about control. I believe that without control in myself, there would be 10x more wrongs in my life as there are now. My emotions have hardened. The only reason they have become hardened is because in this world, the people, the events, have crafted my emotions into a blank stare into a long dark hall of terrible things and terrible people. They say that every man has a weakness, they say that everyone has their demons. I wish not to see mine nor know them.
In my dream... my front yard had been flooded by the ocean. I had about 8-9 people over. At first, we went to my backyard and found some of the strangest animals i've EVER imagined. Siamese rainbow geckos with detachability.(sp?) Another thing is that wherever there was dry sand/land there were an abundance of LARGE red with white spotted mushrooms. A neighbor of mine had found one the size of his own house and made it into a hot air baloon somehow. My dream was ended by the 8-9 people in my house as well as myself trying to keep sanity. I had noticed that every household object and item whatever it was, was signaling me to kill. It was signaling me to kill everything and anything. My friends (by whom I do not remember who exactly) were all layed out on the floor holding their heads as if they also were hearing and seeing what I was seeing trying not to let whoever were telling me to do horrible things get to them. It was the scariest dream I have had in a long long time. Not scary because of ocean in my yard or even the abundance of mushrooms, but because I myself felt that I had no control and no one around me didn't either. I fear that one day this horrible fantasy could easily become reality.
I am very, very egotistical about control. I believe that without control in myself, there would be 10x more wrongs in my life as there are now. My emotions have hardened. The only reason they have become hardened is because in this world, the people, the events, have crafted my emotions into a blank stare into a long dark hall of terrible things and terrible people. They say that every man has a weakness, they say that everyone has their demons. I wish not to see mine nor know them.