oh the lives I've lived.
today was my last day at my job. I cried on the way home. It wasn't as hard as I thought saying goodbye to the kids.... they didn't understand of course and would just smile and hug me. Some of the parents said they'd call for babysitting. Most of them just thanked me... but it's those few people that take time out to say how good I am with the kids and I'll be missed... those people suck and make me feel guilty for leaving... ok so they don't suck, but it makes me feel sad and happy at the same time which is very confusing. On the way home I was thinking... teaching comes really easy to me. And I've gained so much confidence teaching and being around kids everyday. Before I really had never been around kids... except when I was one. Now I know I'm really gonna miss teaching. sigh... that confuses me about my future plans.
There's nothing like being confused.
I feel like I need some time to think.... discover what I want and who I want to be. And again... I hate thinking about all this shit. I'd rather take care of someone else and not worry about all my shit. ugh.
Nick asked me if I loved him in a long term type way. Of course I said yes. then I had a dream that we got engaged... what's going on here? I don't want to think too much about it or too much into it. so I'll stop my thought process here.
I've gotten pretty good at stopping my thought process... heh. It's actually kept me kinda sain.
There's nothing like being confused.
I feel like I need some time to think.... discover what I want and who I want to be. And again... I hate thinking about all this shit. I'd rather take care of someone else and not worry about all my shit. ugh.
Nick asked me if I loved him in a long term type way. Of course I said yes. then I had a dream that we got engaged... what's going on here? I don't want to think too much about it or too much into it. so I'll stop my thought process here.
I've gotten pretty good at stopping my thought process... heh. It's actually kept me kinda sain.