Jan 03, 2008 22:52
So its back to the drawing board for another year, the promises made at the start often didn't make for the perfect ending. So, with fingers crossed and nothing but goodwill in our hearts, we try again. Did we really think that getting fitter would rid us of those demons of 2006? Eating healthy and smiling at strangers did nothing too profound. Perhaps one old man found our beaming smiles welcoming, or maybe he just pitied the root vegetables we carried up hills. 2007 came and went with nothing but a whimper, January a defiant creature but as December arrived it quickly found a small dark corner to sleep in until it's turn was over.
My year? It came and went, some times were quicker than others. I have all but given up on the quest to be a bit more adult, although defying this is my graduation and full time job(s). However, often I forget the sensation of being a wee girl in her mothers shoes, talking on toy phones to "the boss" and shuffling around with a lunch box full of crayons that have a deadline of monday. I've done the deadline thing, welcome to four years of university education, I've had bosses and (mostly) had a good rapport with them, I bought a grown up bag for my new council job I start on monday and my shoes are bigger than my mum's now.
2008 is a year of acceptance, but also of motivation. Acceptance of where I'm going and what I'm doing, but motivated to keep it up. There is no point letting your life happen to you, where is the boldness in that. I know I'm not a bold person, some people describe me as passive, as gentle or as nice but sometimes that wont work. So maybe this year I should go for it. In fact, no maybe about it. Twenty two is not a year for sleeping in corners, I have too much to do in the world to quietly accept things. My yes and no responses should be louder than last year.
Daydreaming last night I thought of what I want to accomplish this year, but moreso how I will accomplish it. Poor organisation has been my achillies heel for far too long. So lists and a day planner will be put into force, my secret weapon against a scatty brain. I enjoy writing in notebooks, I want to keep a book of interesting facts this year, things I find out. Which means I should read more, so when someone calls me out of the blue to ask "do you want to appear on mastermind" I can say yes. I have no specialist subject, maybe by the end of the year I will.
However I do know a lot about the sagrada famillia in barcelona.
Everyone is talking about getting back in touch with friends, or just being there more and I am no different. The flag waving of "boohoo living too far away" has become very tiring, and I do miss small conversations and in jokes and also knowing there was a group of people that were looking out for everyone else they knew. You cant make up that kind of friendship. Everyone is starting to revaluate themselves as people, no longer students but big grown ups so yes as people change, friendships change also. For the better or for worse, I think 2008 will be able to tell us.
See you all for the introspectionfest of 2009. Good luck.