Relationship Blues
I'm so tired of life. I'm so stressed out. Between school and homework and all this stress with Nick, I'm not sure what to do. Nick's ex girlfriend/best friend Tammy is coming back into town on Friday, and he's SO excited about it and all it does is stress me out. Since he started getting all excited about her coming (which was only about 2 weeks ago) he's been an ass, simply put. The way he goes about things and how he treats me and is so mean and disrespectful, I'm not sure I can handle it. I called him a "fucking prick" the other night, to my mom, not to Nick's face, though I later told him about it. I only call people I sincerely hate fucking pricks. The list consists of my dad, Andrew, Aaron (kinda), and Shane. Well, and now Nick. Nick isn't one so much anymore, but he's been called that by me, therefore, he makes the list. I've been so stressed out about it. And last night he told me that she has priority over me. Of course not directly but I said something to the effect of "It bugs me that she has priority over me" and he was like "Do you seriously have a problem with that?" like I really shouldn't. That put him very close to fucking prick status again. I'm so ready to dump him. I really don't want to; I love him and such. But I love me too, and this is so not healthy for me. I kinda miss the single life. I miss being able to flirt and not feel bad about it. Oh, life sucks.