Bollocks!
So, Started out this year, hoping it would be a bit slow....giving me time to recover, redirect and rethink some things. So far, that hasn't happened. Between multiple deaths, restructuring at work and working on the new house...i've been busy.
Its funny the things you think of as a 'given' never really are. Having to face some hard realities about how the world is changing and what my place in them will be.
I was looking forward to only 1 show this year....and it usually comes in Feb. I "thought" i was on the lookout for it...but it has slipped up on me and its happening Saturday night. Just happened to catch a FB post by "The BlackTop Rockets" about going on @ 11PM for HollyFest. Looks like I will miss my one show this year. That sucks on so many levels, I don't even have a clever comment for it.
The one bright ray in day to day life is that I am RAPIDLY approaching age 40. Am I happy about this? You betcha! i'm tickled pink about it. I (as well as myriad others) was pretty sure I'd never make it that far. between occupational choices, hobbies and just plain idiocy...the odds were never good, at best. I've calmed a lot now, in the past 10 years. I like quiet ( and STILL have the irrational quirk that Sunday's should pass with as little noise as possible). Its like I rid myself of a lot of noisy things as the last traces of black fade from my hair. Awesome.
Much like this post, I have no idea where I'm going. The only part of all these changes I don't much like is......my lack of clever and overly wordy ways to express them. I think that is just a side effect from today being a bit blah. So, fear not.
Be Just. Fear not.
Its funny the things you think of as a 'given' never really are. Having to face some hard realities about how the world is changing and what my place in them will be.
I was looking forward to only 1 show this year....and it usually comes in Feb. I "thought" i was on the lookout for it...but it has slipped up on me and its happening Saturday night. Just happened to catch a FB post by "The BlackTop Rockets" about going on @ 11PM for HollyFest. Looks like I will miss my one show this year. That sucks on so many levels, I don't even have a clever comment for it.
The one bright ray in day to day life is that I am RAPIDLY approaching age 40. Am I happy about this? You betcha! i'm tickled pink about it. I (as well as myriad others) was pretty sure I'd never make it that far. between occupational choices, hobbies and just plain idiocy...the odds were never good, at best. I've calmed a lot now, in the past 10 years. I like quiet ( and STILL have the irrational quirk that Sunday's should pass with as little noise as possible). Its like I rid myself of a lot of noisy things as the last traces of black fade from my hair. Awesome.
Much like this post, I have no idea where I'm going. The only part of all these changes I don't much like is......my lack of clever and overly wordy ways to express them. I think that is just a side effect from today being a bit blah. So, fear not.
Be Just. Fear not.