so it's been a couple days....
okay, so they were a busy couple of days...that's probably why i didn't have time to get onto the computer and update you people on how terribly my life is going. I can't seem to attend my classes regularly. it's insane wack. i can't motivate myself to learn about something that will have little to no affect on my life, long-term. i want my GED. i've been thinking about it for a very very very long time and i've decided that that's what i need to get to doing because i know i'll be a happier less stressful person once that happens. i thought katy was on my side but then my dad says in counseling today that katy's not really down with the idea and doesn't like it all that much. that's not what she told me but who do i believe? i wasn't out there with them, this was after my dad decided to be an asshole and mock my wanting to do this. i just LOVE my father. pig. shit. i need a cigarette bad and all i have are teeny tiny refries. i tried to call adam to see if he will buy me a pack of da smokeys but he is not answering his phone. i don't know if i should call katy right now, i need to be checking about my job but i can't get my ass out of this chair. i don't know what i'd say to them. i need to go to TVI and get hella information on the GED and winter term classes and all that shit, enrollment and financial aid info, i need to figure out how to disenroll from AHS, and whether or not i need a parent to do that...oi. and i still have mad homework, even after this weekend, even after 15 fuckin' hours of straight homework, even after staying up until like 2 AM last night i still can't get my homework done.
if, but hopefully when, i go to TVI all that my mother requires i take there is two classes. two classes is 1/3 of what i'm taking right now...god that would make my fuckin' day.
i'm kind of indifferent on katy as of this morning, i love her with all of my heart but now that i hear that, apparently, she likes to tell me one thing and everyone else another, i dont' know what to think about her.
i love my chado, very very much, isn't he thuper? yes, yes i know. things are going just great right now with our friendship...fights have not had nearly as much long term damage recently, at least i think so.
seth...hmmm...well i mean, i think seth is a sweetheart, i think he's a nice person, i don't know if i completely and totally, utterly, "chad"** trust him. (**"chad"-trust him with my life and everything about me) i don't know what will happen in the future. i know one of two things are going to happen though...i'm either going to think he's one of the coolest people i know, or hate his guts, because let's face it folks, isn't that how it always works out with me in the end?
well, i really need to go and do some homework, or call McDonald's, or finish my research paper...oi...lots to do and so much time...the problem is that effort doesn't come easy.
love, peace, and the ever-present ganj,
Abby
if, but hopefully when, i go to TVI all that my mother requires i take there is two classes. two classes is 1/3 of what i'm taking right now...god that would make my fuckin' day.
i'm kind of indifferent on katy as of this morning, i love her with all of my heart but now that i hear that, apparently, she likes to tell me one thing and everyone else another, i dont' know what to think about her.
i love my chado, very very much, isn't he thuper? yes, yes i know. things are going just great right now with our friendship...fights have not had nearly as much long term damage recently, at least i think so.
seth...hmmm...well i mean, i think seth is a sweetheart, i think he's a nice person, i don't know if i completely and totally, utterly, "chad"** trust him. (**"chad"-trust him with my life and everything about me) i don't know what will happen in the future. i know one of two things are going to happen though...i'm either going to think he's one of the coolest people i know, or hate his guts, because let's face it folks, isn't that how it always works out with me in the end?
well, i really need to go and do some homework, or call McDonald's, or finish my research paper...oi...lots to do and so much time...the problem is that effort doesn't come easy.
love, peace, and the ever-present ganj,
Abby