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Am I manic depressive..? Why is it so hard to wake up every morning.. and by "morning" I really mean "afternoon." Why do I feel "almost happy" one day and like I can't move out of bed the next? I feel like I'm walking blindly down a road to absolutely nowhere when I'm awake.. but while I'm sleeping, I still see beauty in my dreams. My dreams over the past two weeks have been some of the best that I can remember. I feel like I'm aching for that place that is just out of reach. I feel like I have all the necessary ingredients right in front of me but I'm still looking for the recipe. I feel as if all the answers keep knocking at my door, but only when I'm not home.
Enough crying..
Mike has been here for me. I'm not exactly sure why, I know he gets frustrated when he doesn't understand.. but he's still here and I honestly believe that he always will be. His warmth has been keeping me alive and breathing. I don't mean to be selfish.. but I really wish we could spend more time together. I want to have the time to tell him what's on my mind, and there is SO MUCH I WANT TO SAY TO HIM! But I don't, and he knows it. Try keeping your troubles hidden from another Scorpio, it just doesn't work. His senses never cease to amaze me.. I wish he could really read my mind so I would never have to say certain things outloud. Strangely enough, if I COULD let him into the most secret corridors of my mind I WOULD.. because I trust him. Opps, did I just say the magic words?
Fuck with these buttons and knobs long enough,
And maybe things will... turn out fine.
I'm keeping my promise to you, Mike.
Enough crying..
Mike has been here for me. I'm not exactly sure why, I know he gets frustrated when he doesn't understand.. but he's still here and I honestly believe that he always will be. His warmth has been keeping me alive and breathing. I don't mean to be selfish.. but I really wish we could spend more time together. I want to have the time to tell him what's on my mind, and there is SO MUCH I WANT TO SAY TO HIM! But I don't, and he knows it. Try keeping your troubles hidden from another Scorpio, it just doesn't work. His senses never cease to amaze me.. I wish he could really read my mind so I would never have to say certain things outloud. Strangely enough, if I COULD let him into the most secret corridors of my mind I WOULD.. because I trust him. Opps, did I just say the magic words?
Fuck with these buttons and knobs long enough,
And maybe things will... turn out fine.
I'm keeping my promise to you, Mike.