In The Homestretch!
We had a most productive weekend. Our apartment is 90% packed up, properly labelled and ready to be relocated! I go over tonight to do the walk-through and get the keys to our exciting new abode. We are both pretty stoked about the new place. We are tired of living in a sugarcube. This will be our home, we start this together, it' will truly be "ours". Moving sucks though. Ugh. Bless him for offering to pack up the kitchen. I hate packing the kitchen.
We also got some pretty serious shit sorted out yesterday. It was overdue, and really starting to wear on my already frazzled nerves. I enjoy it so much that we can sit down and actually tangibly work through to a solution. He opened my eyes to some things that I do to exacerbate the problem. I'm open to it. And I was able to articulate how his handling of the situation was poor and exclusionary. I'm very aware that it is never 100% one person's fault, but it's a monster that left to it's own devices will get out of hand fast when you feel like everything that means anything to you is on the line. I know that I haven't been handling my stress very well lately (see new userpic). I think it comes from having so damn much on my plate and not knowing where to start, so I tackle all of it at once and go for the jugular, God help you if you get in my way. I'm a bull in a china shop sometimes. Between finding a new place to live, packing, organizing all of the moving neccessities, working a new job where I'm on a 89 degree learning curve, working my second job, having the dog for a week, and trying to spend any time I can with Thomas - I think it's a lot for anyone to deal with. I haven't had time for my spiritual side, which is my own fault, but it makes a huge difference to how grounded and connected I am. At any rate, I'm going to attempt to focus on me again for awhile, get my strength back and I'll be much better equipped to handle anything that gets thrown at me.