Nov 22, 2004 20:05
It is completely over now. 6 months and it's gone now. No turning back like all the other times. I'm relieved and pained at the same time. I feel freer that I have in months, yet I feel empty inside. I'm going to be ok though. I knew this would happen eventually, and I knew that things would end like this. I just didn't expect it so soon. I know I will be ok though. I know now that I cannot give up my friends for him. I never could, how could I even try to think I would.
I love you, and because I do, I never asked you to sacrifice and be alone for me. If you truly love me, you wouldn't ask the same of me. I've given too much of myself to you as it is, I can't give what you want though. This is your choice, you forced me to tell the lies. This is your choice, it goes as you will it.