day 5
Today marks 5 days post op. Im so stoked to be able to take my binder off and look at my swollen yet noticably smaller chest. The only thing that so far has sucked is having the drains. My mom had to help me sponge back becuase i have a terrmendous fear about yanking out the drains. They suck when it comes to sleeping too i hate sleeping on my back yet i have to because im afraid of laying on the drains. They come out in 2 days and im almost looking forward to that as much as i was the original surgery. My surgeon did an amazing job and so far everyone who has seen it is amazed at how well it looks and how well i seem to be recoverying. Im getting bored sitting around though. My sleep schdule is off and angie is comming saturday night and im afraid of how sleeping in the same bed with someone is going to feel, my drains will be out by then but i havent had anyone sleep in the same bed wih me for at least 6 months since me nad my last g/f broke up. Angie is staying the night and she goes to college 1.5 hours away so she has to stay with me. I sound like i dont want her to but i really do honestly i really really want her to stay the night. I want to feel her close to me without having the mass of a binder on. To lay next to a girl who treats me like a guy and views me as one and still likes me. I havent had to put a move on a girl in years normally the girl does it to me. But angie has made it clear she doesnt do that and now im freaking out trying to figure out how i am supposed to plant one on her. haha im more worried about puttin the move on her than what its going to feel like having my drains pulled on thursday which i guess is a goo thing. But right now i feel good and im happy with my choice to medically transition even if some people told me i was too young or that i wanst ready for it. I know that right now with a flat chest and drains haning from my side that i did make the right choice...for me