The last time...[ Hmm, he has to think about that. ] Ah...that time. No, you did not imagine it.
Miss Lee, I would rather you not ask for that. Believe me, I know he wants to speaks to you as much as you want speak to him, but you can think of this as a reprieve for him. [ He waves a hand. ] See, this Mist has rather been hard on A-llen. My brother, whom you know as the Earl, showed up. So I did A-llen the favour of speaking to him rather than let A-llen deal with it on his own.
Have you anything to say to my reasoning?
[ Allen is still here. But he decides to withhold that knowledge. For a little longer, anyway. While his tastes are different from his family, he is still Noah, through and through. ]
He and I know it is because of the Mist. But it hardly helps when you are confronted by it and it seems so real, hm? [ Hence the fact he was able to have a pleasant chat with his brother. ]
I told I cannot do that. And I regret to inform you of this:
You were a little too late this time.
[ Folds his hands together and smiles. ]
Will you try to kill me? Listen to your precious Order? If you that, A-llen will vanish. [ Not that a mere Exorcist could bring him down, of course. ]
What will you do now, Lenalee Lee?
[ There were only people he admitted to caring about--Mana and Allen. While this girl was certainly someone his nephew cherishes, he has nothing in regards to feelings for her. ]
...I won't hurt Allen. [Even if it might be a mistake to tell him that. But no order could make her do that.]
But that doesn't mean I'll let you hurt him or anyone else either! I would stop you!
So just bring him back!
[She keeps saying it over and over again, but that's the only real thought inside her head. She can't stand seeing that look in his eyes, that face that's so familiar but twisted now. She wants the real Allen back.]
Ah…so you will not try to kill me. Good. I would hate to have to destroy someone like you while defending myself.
Am I hurting him? He is my host; if I want to see my plan come to fruition of course, he must disappear. But so as long as he continued resist, the longer and…more painful it will be. [ Drops a hint for the future. ] Meaning if he has long accepted the truth, A-llen Walker would have been gone before ‘the last time’ you encountered me. But because he is reluctant to break any promises he has made to his friends and his precious Order, he is still resisting with every fibre. [ Displeasure in his eyes. ] Can I help it if that hurts him?
[ Persistent. He will give her that. ] As soon as he regains himself, he will return. But it will not be anytime soon. [ He has the control to bring Allen, oh yes, but he chooses not to because it really was a terrible hassle. Allen will force himself out later-so he will let his nephew do the work. ]
But I would stop you. Allen...Allen would never forgive himself or me if anyone got hurt. And you are hurting him, because you're keeping him away from his friends, the ones who could really help him through this.
[It's probably more true that he'd never forgive himself. But Lenalee would feel the same measure of guilt.
The idea of Allen disappearing renders her speechless for a moment. It reminds her too much of bad dreams and bad memories.]
He won't disappear! He'll keep fighting, so you might as well forget about your plan! And you might as well stop talking and let him return.
[ Coolly. ] I would watch your words if I were you. You speak of A-llen as if you know him better than I do. But you would be right about the ‘never forgive himself part,’ because he thinks so little of himself. If he let me become who I am, what would become of his friends and his duty? So he fights me, and in the process he hurts himself. I would really spare him the pain, but…this is his choice, see?
Doesn’t need me? My, such a bold statement. [ And here he does what Noah do best-talk, giving half-truths and theories. ]
I chose him for my host. Do you know why? I did it for Mana and for A-llen. Your A-llen was a brat, so to speak, off the streets. He had no-one and nothing, and I did him a favour by giving him something. He bears an uncanny resemblance to me, after all. [ He flicks a finger toward the white hair. ] I am as human as you are, Lena-lee Lee. Don’t my feelings in this matter, too? I died in the process of trying to kill my brother
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Don't talk about him that way. You don't know Allen. You don't understand his heart, or you wouldn't be doing this to him. And he has something now, people who care about him!
Allen! I know you can hear me. Don't worry, I trust you, so I know you're going to be okay. And I'm going to do anything I can to see to it!
[ Such accusations, and coming from a girl, of all people. He frowns then. ] I've known him for most of his life. Longer than the people he calls his friends.
What if I told you that the smile you see isn't always real? Would you still trust him? He does so many things for the Order, and what does he get in return? A order that he is too be killed if I manifested myself. A shadow trailing him. Rumours encircling him.
He worries far too much for a child, in my opinion. Worries himself sleepless for you. [ He leans forward and taps the screen. ] His friends have placed upon him a burden that he cannot deny. And in that way, he denies me.
[She's speechless for a moment. Not because she has to think about her answer. But the things that he says...she doesn't want to hear it. It hurts. Allen's voice saying those things...it hurts. And there is a limit to the pain that a person can handle.
But this isn't it. Not for her. Not when it comes to Allen.]
Of course I trust him. I'll always trust him! I do those same things for him! And it's not a burden, it's what gives me strength! Allen...my brother and my friends, they're what keeps me going and gives me hope! And I know it's the same for him.
So you can try...try to keep me from reaching him, try to make me lose faith in him. But it's you who'll be disappointed in the end.
[ A sigh. Humans and their sentiments. Oh yes, he was human, but a different sort of human, and not one to be terribly swayed by emotions. ]
I was testing your resolve. So you seem very clear on your position and on...A-llen's. It will make things harder when he is entirely gone, but...at least I can say he would be happy to hear that. As a final prayer, he would not want you to suffer, though that is not possible, is it?
He is far too attached to everything. And you are far too attached to him. [ Displeasure. ] This really does put a curve in my plans...
[ And here the Fourteenth will start to muse. He once shared those feelings, but time has muted them, and he does NOT want them back. Mana was died, the Earl was alive, and feelings would only be a distraction. ]
Lena-lee Lee, I will let you in on a secret. When Allen fully becomes me, he will have to kill someone he loves.
I'm his elder. If I am not wiser and more experienced, then what would I be?
It's all about winning, isn't it? Your Order steps on people to win. At the very least, I am allowed to do the same.
[ Much faith. It would simply make a parting more difficult. ]
You trust him that much...touching, quite touching. [ Sarcasm mixed with a small amount of genuine respect. He purses his lips. ] I do hate being nice to anyone beyond family, but--
A-llen's time has not yet run out. There is very little reason for me to be here, anyway. Not unless my brother comes here.
[But even as she says his name, she knows better.]
Allen, can you hear me!
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[ He rests his head against the back of his hand, looking more bored than anything else. ]
He can’t hear you right now.
Shall I take a message?
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No, I'll speak to you instead. But you know what I'm about to say.
Bring Allen back!
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Miss Lee, I would rather you not ask for that. Believe me, I know he wants to speaks to you as much as you want speak to him, but you can think of this as a reprieve for him. [ He waves a hand. ] See, this Mist has rather been hard on A-llen. My brother, whom you know as the Earl, showed up. So I did A-llen the favour of speaking to him rather than let A-llen deal with it on his own.
Have you anything to say to my reasoning?
[ Allen is still here. But he decides to withhold that knowledge. For a little longer, anyway. While his tastes are different from his family, he is still Noah, through and through. ]
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At least she hopes it's that way.]
No! It's the Mist, it wasn't real! I could tell him that and help him through it!
[As for what she has to say...this time it's a little more forceful.]
Bring him back!
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I told I cannot do that. And I regret to inform you of this:
You were a little too late this time.
[ Folds his hands together and smiles. ]
Will you try to kill me? Listen to your precious Order? If you that, A-llen will vanish. [ Not that a mere Exorcist could bring him down, of course. ]
What will you do now, Lenalee Lee?
[ There were only people he admitted to caring about--Mana and Allen. While this girl was certainly someone his nephew cherishes, he has nothing in regards to feelings for her. ]
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But that doesn't mean I'll let you hurt him or anyone else either! I would stop you!
So just bring him back!
[She keeps saying it over and over again, but that's the only real thought inside her head. She can't stand seeing that look in his eyes, that face that's so familiar but twisted now. She wants the real Allen back.]
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Am I hurting him? He is my host; if I want to see my plan come to fruition of course, he must disappear. But so as long as he continued resist, the longer and…more painful it will be. [ Drops a hint for the future. ] Meaning if he has long accepted the truth, A-llen Walker would have been gone before ‘the last time’ you encountered me. But because he is reluctant to break any promises he has made to his friends and his precious Order, he is still resisting with every fibre. [ Displeasure in his eyes. ] Can I help it if that hurts him?
[ Persistent. He will give her that. ] As soon as he regains himself, he will return. But it will not be anytime soon. [ He has the control to bring Allen, oh yes, but he chooses not to because it really was a terrible hassle. Allen will force himself out later-so he will let his nephew do the work. ]
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[It's probably more true that he'd never forgive himself. But Lenalee would feel the same measure of guilt.
The idea of Allen disappearing renders her speechless for a moment. It reminds her too much of bad dreams and bad memories.]
He won't disappear! He'll keep fighting, so you might as well forget about your plan! And you might as well stop talking and let him return.
He doesn't need you.
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Doesn’t need me? My, such a bold statement. [ And here he does what Noah do best-talk, giving half-truths and theories. ]
I chose him for my host. Do you know why? I did it for Mana and for A-llen. Your A-llen was a brat, so to speak, off the streets. He had no-one and nothing, and I did him a favour by giving him something. He bears an uncanny resemblance to me, after all. [ He flicks a finger toward the white hair. ] I am as human as you are, Lena-lee Lee. Don’t my feelings in this matter, too? I died in the process of trying to kill my brother ( ... )
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Allen! I know you can hear me. Don't worry, I trust you, so I know you're going to be okay. And I'm going to do anything I can to see to it!
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What if I told you that the smile you see isn't always real? Would you still trust him? He does so many things for the Order, and what does he get in return? A order that he is too be killed if I manifested myself. A shadow trailing him. Rumours encircling him.
He worries far too much for a child, in my opinion. Worries himself sleepless for you. [ He leans forward and taps the screen. ] His friends have placed upon him a burden that he cannot deny. And in that way, he denies me.
Is that what you want?
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But this isn't it. Not for her. Not when it comes to Allen.]
Of course I trust him. I'll always trust him! I do those same things for him! And it's not a burden, it's what gives me strength! Allen...my brother and my friends, they're what keeps me going and gives me hope! And I know it's the same for him.
So you can try...try to keep me from reaching him, try to make me lose faith in him. But it's you who'll be disappointed in the end.
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I was testing your resolve. So you seem very clear on your position and on...A-llen's. It will make things harder when he is entirely gone, but...at least I can say he would be happy to hear that. As a final prayer, he would not want you to suffer, though that is not possible, is it?
He is far too attached to everything. And you are far too attached to him. [ Displeasure. ] This really does put a curve in my plans...
[ And here the Fourteenth will start to muse. He once shared those feelings, but time has muted them, and he does NOT want them back. Mana was died, the Earl was alive, and feelings would only be a distraction. ]
Lena-lee Lee, I will let you in on a secret. When Allen fully becomes me, he will have to kill someone he loves.
[ Smile. And a gleam of those golden eyes. ]
Is that you?
Would you really want him to do that?
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He won't do that to me. [Not the killing her part, the part about him being entirely gone.
And here's something you already know -- without him, a part of me would already be dead. So your threats don't scare me.
Allen? It's okay. I know you'll make it okay.
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It's all about winning, isn't it? Your Order steps on people to win. At the very least, I am allowed to do the same.
[ Much faith. It would simply make a parting more difficult. ]
You trust him that much...touching, quite touching. [ Sarcasm mixed with a small amount of genuine respect. He purses his lips. ] I do hate being nice to anyone beyond family, but--
A-llen's time has not yet run out. There is very little reason for me to be here, anyway. Not unless my brother comes here.
Is that good enough for you, Miss Lee?
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