I miss everyone!
Something has happened the past few days. In between running around for the halloween carnival and doing articles and homework, I've been really missing everyone. I really miss my cross girls. Tonight and tomorrow will be the last regional race for some of them and the last race for others. Heather's last race will be next week at state meet and Jessica just finished her junior year of cross. It's so sad. I miss them so much. It was so nice to talk to them again tonight. : ( I miss all my other cross girls and skating buddies. I miss the stupid 4 am conversations and the conversations we had while gasping for breath in the middle of the six mile runs. I miss all my L-town friends especially Dery, Amanada (both), Jessica and Joanna. I feel so lost and confused. I don't feel like I fit anywhere anymore. I mean I have great friends, but right now, it doesn't seem like any of them are up here with me. I mean, I have Allison whom I run with and talk to all the time, but everyone else, I have to go find them to hang out with them and they don't come see me or call me. I'm like the fly on the wall that everyone knows is there, but just ignores. I've gone down there the past few days and have felt so out of place it's been scary. I'm not even part of the crew anymore. I miss everyone so bad and it sucks. I just want a hug right now. It's a Friday night and what am I going to be doing? Homework. Simply because everyone else has plans and didn't bother to see if I wanted to join them or do anything. I should have gone home. Then at least I can go hang out with my family and Joanna as opposed to sitting here in a dark, dorm room all alone doing homework while listening to the same track for skating over and over again. I miss everyone and want you to know that I love you all and one day, I'll feel loved too.